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MY LSS FOR THE MONTH


Sakaling magbalik sa iyo
Pagkatapos magpalit-anyo ang paligid
Sa ’sang gilid may mga matang nagmamasid
At nag-aabang ng bagong laro

Refrain:
Alam ko
Pagbabayaran ko
Ang nakalimutang tagpo
Pagbabayaran ko

Chorus:
Sa tuwing umaalis at tuwing bumibitaw
Ang puso ko’y nagsusumigaw
Nagpapanggap mang nakangiti pa rin
Dala ang iyong habilin
Ang puso ko’y nagususmigaw
Nagususmigaw

Verse II:
Sakaling magpalit anyo ang ngayon
Magagamot ba ang pait ng kahapon
Pagsisisi’y nakaukit sa naguumpugang bato
Eto na kaya ang bagong laro

Repeat Refrain
Repeat Chorus

A Movie Suggestion from a Movie Idiot

I have a bad habit of sleeping at movie theaters. I slept while watching Dark Night and the last one is Transformers II. But I really enjoyed the effects of the latter. It is also peculiar that I’m writing about movies right now.

I am a fan of comedy or romantic comedy type of films. The last movie I’ve seen is Hangover which is the no.1 rated R comedy film. I also like Adam Sandler movies. I have a dream movie. Gusto ko sana magkaroon ng movie ang Pugad Baboy. Yes, you read it right. The comic strip by Pol Medina Jr. I started reading it when I am starting to learn how to read. I think it is not that impossible since the characters of Pugad Baboy already appeared on a music video and commercial. They appeared on Sugarfree’s “Pugad” video. The video revolves about… what else but FOOD!!... They also appeared on a Quaker (tama ba?) commercial basta about food pa rin. The plot of the movie? Kahit ano… siguro pwede nilang gamitin yung mga nagawa na ni Pol like yung mga adventures sa ibang lugar like Palawan, Baguio… o kung saan man. Or kahit ano. Kahit mala the Simpsons the movie…


Since uso yung mga libro na gingawang movie sa Holywood bakit hindi natin yung try. Why not make Bob Ong’s books a movie? Mas maganda sana kung yung ABBNKKBSNPLAko! Since parang biography iyon ng buhay ng author. Gusto ko din sanang masapelikula ang Rant by Chuck Palanhuik. Ang astig ng storya at sa tingin ko mahirap yon gawing movie.

Siguro kulang na kulang ako sa panood ng movies para malaman kung ano maganda at hindi. Last month manood sana ako ng “Kinatay” kaso tapos na nung pumunta ako sa Rob Manila. Indie movies are overrated I think. And that’s good since Phil. Cinema needs movie that has more substance. The first and the last indie movie I’ve seen is “Kubrador” starring Gina Pareno. I am really impressed with the whole story plus characters. You will never see a movie like that in mainstream. I really like to watch lots of indie movies like “Ang Pagdadalaga…”, “Masahista”, “My Fake American Accent”, atbp.

Unofficial Dean’s List

October 23 (Friday)

“Ako ngayoy lumilipad at ngayon ay nasa langit na gusto mo bang sumama?”
Pampalubag loob. I got my grades. I have 3 A- and a B-. I computed it and I could be in the dean’s list. I’m freaking out!!! It’s every procrastinator’s dream. Actually I have another subject that I will take for 3 days next week. I don’t know if it’s only passed or failed. Its 2 units. So unofficially my QPA is 3.5… Hell yeah… but it’s not yet time to celebrate… my thesis still sucks.

Pero pampalubag loob talaga sooobra. Imagine being stressed out for the first time. Too stressed out. Then you will see your name in the hall because you are included to the list… the list that everybody wanted to be in…

Pero… hindi pa ko sure… that’s the sad part… I’m crossing my fingers…

Depress Mode

October 20 (Tuesday)
“Wag kang matakot na baka magkamali walang mapapala kung mag babakasakali… Lumilipas ang oras baka ka maiwan kung di mo susubukan…”

Ang adik talaga… The worst thing that could happen to a graduating college student doing his/her thesis happened to me. It’s October and our defense is on December and just now our prof rejected our thesis proposal. WTF! We kept on repeating on her what will our thesis would be, she says nothing. So now I’m so ngarag… who wouldn’t be? I need to catch up. As in!!!

First time ata mangyari sa akin ito… I’m so fucking stressed out!! That even in my dreams I’m dreaming about our thesis…. Thesis, thesis, thesis!!!!!

Safeguard

My heart is unguarded
It is surrounded by mere solitude
A love I can share
The pain I already can’t bear
Standing still
I realized happiness is not there anymore
I’m trying to go back to the reasons
Why I always smile
But my heart is blocked
My mind sucked
I’m sick of waiting
Roving in the dark
Alone in the park
Oh, my poor heart
It is patiently waiting
For her security guard

Cold Turkey

Loving you is a vice
It’s like puffing a cigarette
I won’t stop till I can’t get enough
It keeps me stable
I feel comfortable
It destroys my system
But I feel very elated

Loving you is like drinking liquor
It keeps me sane
It brings my different side
And as if my world is about to collide
It keeps me high
It makes me alive

From now on
I will not stop smoking
Nor my drinking
But I will stop loving you
Its cold turkey
And it’s hurting me

Stupid!!!

September 15 (Tuesday)
“At sa ibang boy ikaw nakipag laro ka ng apoy… ako ay nananaghoy”

My favorite line for today:

While we are at our 6:00-9:00pm class our computers encountered some problem so we decided to use a proxy site because some sites are blocked by the way, and we just opened our facebook. Well we can’t do much because we are not allowed to play or anything. it is still blocked. so we just viewing our friends and their pictures to kill time. lisa opened her facebook and we saw her friend with D. Then…

Me: Is this D the self proclaimed…
Lisa and Me: matalino?!!!
LOL…
hehehe…. I hate people who are self proclaimed matalino… wahaha…

oh by the way we had retreat for 3 days last week. It was fun because I was with Lis, Marj and Anj. we are sharing 2 rooms together. It was really, really fun. Well I’m still having LSS with the song Stupid Luv by Salbakuta. blame my friends for that. hahaha… Kumanta lang kami ng kumanta… hahaha… I will miss those days… hay… sobrang cheesy…

Rant

Oct.2 (Friday)

Pahabol… another weird thing about me is I keep the receipts of the albums I buy. I want to see when, where I bought it. I am also planning to compute how much I used in buying all those shit. hehehe… but not now…. I’m broke (walang pasok for 1 week!!! fuck!) and computing it will make me feel worse.

Anyways, I want to write about lot of things, like the latest albums I am listening, the books I’m reading, the suspension of classes, my fucking thesis, my fucking prof , but let see where would I start…

so now I decided to write something about the albums I purchased. The recent album I bought is Sandwich’s Two in One Cd. well because these past few days I am listening at the radio I’m hearing this song called “Butterfly Carnival” and “Hair Pin”. I love those songs… then last Wednesday I went to Astovision just to look around I found out that Sandwich’s Two in One Cd is 185 bucks. Well, I bought Mojofly’s 2 in one cd last July 13, 2007?( I told you I keep receipts!) when I guess it is still new it costs 285 bucks. Imagine 2 cds for just 185!!! It is impossible!!! hehehe…

I’m not yet done listening to it. 34 tracks are so many for my 2 ears. I am playing it randomly. Then I was surprised to hear a track by Raymund Marasigan. it sounded like a song from e-heads. But nonetheless… it is all good…

I also bought Kjwan’s 13 Seconds to Love. I love “Life Line”, “13 Seconds To Love”, “Nasilayan”, “Meron Ba?”.

I also bought Pupil’s Wildlife Repackaged Album. Dito ako mag ra-rant. grabeh! ang nakalagay kasi may ni re-mastered yung mga songs. Yun pala “Animal Lover” lang. Tapos sabi kasi my stickers. yung kapatid ko kasi gusto ng mga stickers like yung sa 5 on the floor ng sandwich. Hehehe ang babaw…. pero… ayun…tapos puro music videos at demos…pang lubag loob… tapos meron mga pictures na pwede ko namang I cut, copy, paste. Naiinis ako kasi na loko ako!!! I have Wildlife album na kasi. Don’t get me wrong I love that album and it won as album of the year at Nu Rock awards last year. pero para lang talaga ako nagtapon ng pera. inis na inis ako… pero sinasabi ko na lang sa aking sarili kay Ely naman yun eh. hehehe… tapos wala pa naman akong ibang album na gusto…. pero… grrrrr…. Sana bumili na lang ako ng e-heads album, o kaya lobo…

Elib ako sa mga marketing strategy ng mga yan… Naloko ako… putek…I hate repackage albums… baket ba may ganon??? nakakaasar…

Ngayon ko lang naalala… Tapos nap ala yung anniversary ng blog ko… hahaha… di ko na naalala… last September pa… so happy 3rd birthday to you… dahil dyan I re-renovate ko ulit… so pls. bear with me… hahaha

Votetante na ko!!!

“Boto mo i-patrol mo”
Before I vote in 2010 presidential election I first voted for NU 107’s Rock awards. It’s like an annual thingy for me. I think it’s my 3rd time to vote…. Yeah men!!!

MY VOTE LIST:

1. Artist of the Year
Kjwan
2. Album of the Year
13 seconds to Love
3. Vocalist of the Year
Yan Yuzon
4. Guitarist of the Year
Marc Abaya
5. Bassist of the Year
Paul Yap
6. Drummer of the Year
Ean Mayor
7. Song of the Year
Salita
8. Best New Artist
Duster
9. Best Album Packaging
13 seconds to Love (Kjwan)
10. Best Music Video
Gusto ko lamang sa buhay (Itchyworms)
11. Producer of the Year
Bamboo
12. Smart / URock
College Band of the Year
Pards (UP Manila)

· I am into Kjwan right now… Obviously… and among the albums there konti lang ang meron ako so bias eh…

Wake me up when March ends…

“Today is gonna be the day that they're gonna throw it back to you. By now you should've somehow realized what you gotta do”

Ilang buwan na lang at ako ay mag-mamarcha na patungo sa ma damong quadrangle ng aming eskwelahan. Makakapunta na sa kauna-unahang pagkakataon ang aking tatay sa SSC. Makakasuot na ako ng itim na toga. matatangap ko na ang diplomang aking pinagarap simula ng ako ay uhugin pa. Ang diplomang din yon ang sumisimbola ng aking pag tanda at pag papaalam. Paalam na sa pag-aaral. Paalam na sa mga guro…. Paalam na sa mga kaibigan. Paalam na sa buhay skwela. Paalam na sa pagiging dependent. paalam na sa baon. Paalam na…

Ang diploma ay isang simbolo din ng pagpapasalamat. At salamat sa IYO…

Ang diploma din ang sumisimbolo ng bagong hamon sa aking buhay. Ano nga ba ang aking mararating? makakapunta kaya ako patungo sa aking mga pangarap? mahirap sagutin pero madaling mangarap…

Sana pag gising ko bukas March na…. para tapos na ang mga agam-agam, mga nakakatakot na imahinasyon at pag dududa… Sana bukas pag gising ko ay may hawak na akong diploma…

The 10 weird facts about me:

The 10 weird facts about me:

Actually I don’t know if these things are weird but for me I think it is.
1) I cried maybe twice while reading a book. The books that made me cry are Bob Ong’s Mac Arthur and Mitch Albom’s For One More Day
2) I have trichotillomania, an impulse disorder characterized by the repeated urge to pull out scalp hair.
3) I am OC at my music files in my computer. I have folders of different artist. I want it to be organized. As much as possible I want all the details to appear, for example at Media Player I want Album Covers are there, the released date, the composers etc.
4) I get sick or sometimes not feeling well when I am restoring my computer.
5) I read newspaper, magazine or book inside the bathroom.
6) I love watching videos at MYX and MTV even if the videos are just keeps on repeating.
7) I can live without a cellphone
8) I have weird imagination lalo na pag gabi.
9) I don’t want my collections to be seen. Well I have a virus collection…
10) I talk to myself… a lot…

Alapaap

False Alarm

Aug.17 (Monday)

Hindi ko na alam ang nangyari. Tumingin ka ng malayo. Wag kang lumingon. Pumikit sumikip, mata’y bumaon. Ewan ko ba? Ayoko muna. Tumingin ka ng malayo
Unting unting lumalapit sa’yo. Paakyat ako ika’y pababa sigarilyong hawak ko. ewan ko ba? Ayoko na muna…. Tumingin ka ng malayo. Maduling ka sa irap ko sa’yo.
Hanggang dito na lang… ayoko na talaga sa’yo… ewan ko ba? Ano pa ba ang iyong naramdaman. Kalimutan mo na. pls ayaw ko ng malaman. Kalimitan mo na ako… Kalimutan mo na ako… Kalimutan mo na ako… Kalimutan mo na ako… Kalimutan mo na… Nakalimutan ko na… Kalimutan mo na… Nakalimutan ko na na minahal kita…

Mariah Monkey

“ABS-CBN o GMA7, ABS-CBN o GMA7… Original o Pirated”

The opening line is “Bombardment” by Dong Abay.

I heard in the news about the gaya-gaya issue of Freddie Aguilar towards Charice Pempenco, Arnel Pineda and Gary V. He said something like why Charice and Arnel didn’t sing some Filipino songs when they are invited in some shows or have gigs on a foreign land.

A while ago when I was playing with the remote control I saw Sandara Park. She is now at her own land, Korea and she has a girl group called 21. I saw their music video at Myx. Anyways, the chismis show has this video showing her singing her hit song “In or Out”. It is a Tagalog song and she is singing it at her own land Korea and if I’m not mistaken she is pure Korean. I guess Ka Freddie saw that video.

What a shame.

A pure Korean is there at her own land singing a Tagalog song. Of course Koreans doesn’t understand what she is singing.

Sure, Charice and Arnel are making us proud because they are all over the world bringing us pride and joy. These two got the fame because of covering some foreign songs. I think Freddie Aguilar is quite right. If Sandara, a pure Korean who lived here for quite number of years and sings Tagalog song in front of thousands of her own kind why not Charice and Arnel. They are 100% Filipino. No foreign blood attached

What a shame.

When I saw that video of Sandara I realized that behind this “krung-krung” girl is more than a Filipino to some of us. She still knows to look back to the country who once loved her.

Then when I’m watching Channel V I saw these local bands playing at various places like Malaysia, Singapore etc… Well I am not sure if they are singing Tagalog songs but I am sure that they play their own compositions. That’s enough for me. That’s why I am for bands than singers, balladeers and pop stars.

So what I’m trying to say?

I don’t know. I’m still wasak today.

It’s a protocol; YOU NEED TO DIE TO BE A HERO, TO BE NOTICED

“and I want to thank you for giving me the best day of my life...”

In what I am seeing right now… I want to die… to be noticed…

When Francis M. is still around my brothers don’t know how to sing “Kaleidoscope World”. They wouldn’t even bother to play it on my laptop. But when he died, my ears are bleeding because they are singing it to death. They even let me download some of his songs. The same goes with Michael Jackson. When he is still alive we put more importance on his weirdness than his musicality.

It’s true that we just acknowledge a person when he or she is not around. We just take them for granted.

In Cory’s situation she is just acknowledge as a hero when she died. I mean do you really need to die to be a hero? She fought for democracy decades ago and just now when she died they come to realize that she could be another national hero. Yeah, maybe it’s better late than never. But if you could think about it, we really don’t know if she could really see us, if she knows what is happening right now.

Gives you hell

I’ve got so many things to tell. I don’t know if I can say all those things.

First I still don’t have a cellphone. My father is too thrifty. I am thrifty but he is just too thrifty and it is annoying. I got depressed sometimes not because I don’t have the cellphone or maybe it’s a part of it but the issue is they don’t give me something I like. I mean I may not be the best daughter but I behaved or I pretend to behave the way they like. I don’t go anywhere past 9 pm, I have good grades… so I guess I need some reward.

I don’t have an internet. I go to computer shops every time I needed to. And if you don’t know my course is Bus. I.T. so I really need internet services. I don’t ask them to give money to buy clothes, CDs or books. I’m using all my savings. As of now I have 20 bucks. I just bought Bob Ong’s Kapitan Sino. I really like to have Paolo Coelho’s Veronica Decides to Die. When we are at National I said that I like that book to my mom. She said she will buy me when it’s “salary time”. Well it’s almost august and she told me that last July. Damn it. I cried every time the cellphone issue comes into my mind.

I am about to graduate this March. And I’m already planning my future. I said to myself that I will apply to call center because the salary is quite high. If I will get about maybe 10-20 thousand in my first job, I will give 5 thousand bucks to my parents then the rest is for my luho and maybe save a little. At my first salary I will buy the latest cellphone. I know that I said before that I can live without that, I still can but it’s different. I want something I never had. I will also save some money for my “laptop fund”. I hate my laptop now. REALLY!! DAMN IT!! I also planned to go to abroad, maybe anywhere in Asia or Europe. I also said before that I will not go work abroad but things changed and I am changing too. I want to go to abroad primarily not because of earning dollars but because I want to be independent. I said before that I am not ready to go anywhere because I will be away with my family and I will be away with my favorite bands. But I said that couple of years ago, and at that time I am still young still thinking of stupid things. Now I am 19. I am way matured than before.

A lot of notable people died this year. And we are just half way through it. Francis M., Michael Jackson and now Cory Aquino. I just come to realize that a lot of things may happen that we never expect that it would happen. And now we are losing and losing iconic people who let us rediscover the words Pinoy Pride , Democracy and other words that we will not learn without them.

Wasak ang Cossack!!

July 15 (Wednesday)

“Wala naman kaming napala Wala, Wala, Wala!”

Wednesdays is our “Thesis day” because we don’t have class during that day. So we went to Lisa’s place to do our thesis. But as my opening line says… Wala kamin napala, wala, wala, wala, wala. Uminom lang kami ng vodka cruiser at isang dambuhalang Cossack Vodka. The taste of Cossack reminds me of my medicine for my cough. Mainit sa lalamunan… mainit sa katawan…hahaha…

We bought the drinks at SM supermarket. Yung sa mga liquor area. Ako, si Cindz, Lisa at Marj we went there to buy drinks. Tapos alam naming tatanungin kami ng mga salesman kung 18 na ba kami. Sabi ni Lisa “20 na ko”. Hahaha… sabi nila kaming dalawa ni Cindz yung tiniignan kasi di kami mukhang 18. hehehe…. Ang liit naming eh.

So what a wasak day.

To know wat really happened to us search for the “Alkohol” lyrics by Eraserheads. That’s exactly what happened. hahaha

Rip it

Rip it off!

I want to see your burly body

Isn’t it a little bit heavy?

Come on see me at the lobby

Baby are you ready?

I always dream of your kissable lips

Oh I just can’t resist

You are always part of my list

Oh babe I can be your sexy beast

Your visage is a work of art

I can’t blame myself if you will be in my heart

You are such a talented human being

You are one of the reasons why my life is worth living

Rip it off!

I want to be your baby

Isn’t it obvious honey?

Come on see me at my room

I baked you some macaroon

sketches

Demented

 I am not free as a bee 

But I wander like a python

 I am not as pretty as I can be 

All I have is a stupid fashion