The endless cycle

"As we go on, we remember all the times we had together. And as our lives change, come whatever we will still be friends forever"

When someone will say that we will be friends forever, I know it won’t be true. I've heard it a thousand times before. It's such a cliché. That's why I am so sad when people leave. Because I know when they leave, it is already the end. I won't listen and believe to flowery words that we will keep in touch, that we still see each other, that I can contact you when I need you, blah blah blah. I am at my age where I've seen so many people come and go in my life. It's really painful but I don't have a choice but to move forward and meet other people. Then eventually they will also leave. It's a cycle that I don't want to go through. I wan't to skip hellos and goodbyes. I just want to stay in a cycle of making memories. The happy moments. The days when my stomach ache because of too much laughing. The jokes we say to each other. The times we get drunk. The times we console each other when we have bad times. The times when we were so happy that we wish it won't end.

What's worst is to know that the person is not feeling the same way towards you. When they don't cling to those memories you made with them. That you were just a person that made a cameo role in their life. You were just an extra, you are easy to forget because what they have with their lives are much better. Because unlike a Beyonce song, I am replaceable. It sucks.

I wish I will have stronger tolerance with this endless cycle.