The endless cycle

"As we go on, we remember all the times we had together. And as our lives change, come whatever we will still be friends forever"

When someone will say that we will be friends forever, I know it won’t be true. I've heard it a thousand times before. It's such a cliché. That's why I am so sad when people leave. Because I know when they leave, it is already the end. I won't listen and believe to flowery words that we will keep in touch, that we still see each other, that I can contact you when I need you, blah blah blah. I am at my age where I've seen so many people come and go in my life. It's really painful but I don't have a choice but to move forward and meet other people. Then eventually they will also leave. It's a cycle that I don't want to go through. I wan't to skip hellos and goodbyes. I just want to stay in a cycle of making memories. The happy moments. The days when my stomach ache because of too much laughing. The jokes we say to each other. The times we get drunk. The times we console each other when we have bad times. The times when we were so happy that we wish it won't end.

What's worst is to know that the person is not feeling the same way towards you. When they don't cling to those memories you made with them. That you were just a person that made a cameo role in their life. You were just an extra, you are easy to forget because what they have with their lives are much better. Because unlike a Beyonce song, I am replaceable. It sucks.

I wish I will have stronger tolerance with this endless cycle.

Things I learned when school ended...

Hello there graduates of 2015! Are you done printing your resume? Are you preparing for job interviews?

I graduated last 2010. Can’t believe it’s almost 5 years already. I’ve been working for a couple of years and to tell you honestly, I can’t wait for my retirement. haha. Sure it’s fun to receive salary. It’s even more fun if you receive 13th and 14th month pay… but working is really exhausting and sometimes you wish you are a college student again, when everything seems so simpler. 

I must tell you that you only use less than 10% of what you learned when you are already working in a corporate world. Well, unless you are in a medical field, an attorney or any profession that has board exam. To tell you honestly, I don’t or should I say can’t use the things I learned in college in my field. My course and current field is a little bit of mismatch. I am Commerce  major in Information Systems graduate in HR field (payroll).

Anyways, here are the things I learned outside the school that I think they should include:

1) Kissing ass really works. Maybe not all the time, but it will really have an effect in your career. 

2) You must learn how to use Vlookup. Is it just me or am I absent in my computer class that I did not learn it in school? It is very useful to me (maybe just to me).

3) If you think you already encountered different types of people in school, wait till you step in the corporate world. You will meet thieves, whore, ass kissers, drama queens and other types of people in a different level. 

4) Even if you will stay until 4 am, if your boss doesn’t like you, you won’t receive an increase or  a 200 pesos Starbucks gift certificate or even a “Good Job”.

5) Managers are not necessarily the best in their field. I don’t want to elaborare (wink wink)

6) Just find a couple of office mates that you will trust and you will be ok.

There… I spit it out… Just enjoy the unemployed life… because I did… I was unemployed for 1 and a half years… well almost 2… 

But if you want a real advice please read this:  http://thoughtcatalog.com/brianna-wiest/2014/01/18-things-we-should-have-been-taught-as-teenagers/

SO HAPPY GRADUATION BATCH 2015 :)

Heaven knows I’m miserable now

“In my life why do Ismile to people I much rather kick in the eye?”

I am an introvert since birth. When the doctor slapped mybutt I didn’t react. They thought I am not alive. They slapped my butt again,but this time it was more painful.  So of course I cried. I gave what they want.

Anyway, fast forward to today, who would have thought that I am now working in HR Department as a payroll assistant. How the hell did I land the job? I didn’t apply that’s for sure.

I applied for Data Analyst position around 2011. I stayed for 3 months since my manager said I am not fit for that position. If you will think about it, that position really fits an introvert like me. You will just surf the net, cut, copy, paste… that’s it. You will do that for around 5 to 6 hours since 3 hours is allotted for lunch, morning and afternoon breaks and day dreaming.

Upon checking my resume and my perfect math test, she suggested that I can transfer to the Payroll Department or IT Dept. (since  in my resume I put that I made a Payroll System). So yeah, I was transferred to Payroll Dept. as a Payroll Processor. Another job that really fits an introvert like me. I stayed in that position for 3 months and then I was the “lucky”(?)  among others  to be sent to the client. They need a Payroll Support because their Payroll Processing is crumbling. So I was sent to save their payroll and timekeeping dilemma.

I didn’t know that they are sending me to HR Department of an American IT Company. The worst idea ever. Well of course at first. Being an HR practitioner is the last position in my “What do you want to be when you grow up?” list.  Being in HR means talking to people a lot. I mean a lot. I  diagnose myself having social phobia, social anxiety , asocial or even being autistic.

Too much human interaction is really hard for me.  Who would have thought that introverts and shy type  like me will find a niche in a department where talking and being around stranger is a must.

Today, I am working for almost 3 years as Payroll Assistant in the HR Department. Just recently, I am tasked to orient new hires about our Bi—weekly Payroll schedule and using our Timekeeping system.   I must say my first try was so bad. But when I did it again last week, I think it was better.

So hello there introverts! you can take a job that’s ultimately for extroverts or people person. You just have to try.

PS. My subject doesn’t connect with this post. I just used it since my opening line is from The Smiths song. This post is about the irony of life. (naks!)