September 07, 2026

Me version 2026



I am not afraid to do things alone. I will not wait for someone to like what I like, to do the things I wanted to do, to go somewhere alone, and wander in a foreign place, out of my comfort zone. 

My mind is still noisier than I am. I listen to podcasts like The Koolpals to drown out the voices in my head. It takes five guys to shut my brain off so I can sleep.

I am at a point in my career where younger colleagues ask for my advice and expertise, which I find funny because I can't even give advice to myself. 

I am still as shy as a cucumber. But with my friends, I'm an alcoholic introvert who can outdrink anyone.

If I could change my career path, I would love to go into the arts. Be a photographer, graphic artist or art director. Be a painter or potter. 

I still love watching gigs. I see myself using my senior citizen discount card in concerts. 

I know I will never have family on my own and I accept it. I see myself alone in my dying days but hopefully with a smile on my face.

September 06, 2026

2026 Music

What do I listen to these days? In 2026, I still find myself listening to indie OPM bands. My prediction is that these will be my top songs on Spotify. Some of the songs here are not new, but I just can't last a day without listening to them.

1) "Lasik" by Hey June - "Shit, nasaan aking salamin?" is so iconic for someone like me who wears glasses. I've seen Hey June! perform live, and I must say they have incredible energy and stage presence that not all of the newer bands have. The bassist's charm is undeniable, with her red hair and a personality that lights up the stage.



2) "Kabisado" by IV of Spades — I may not be a fan of the band, but I really like this song. At first, I thought this was a Rico Blanco song, though I know that the members are heavily influenced by Rico, and it really shows in this track. The vocals and the lyrics are really like classic Rico Blanco writing—witty, poetic, and instantly recognizable.


3) Pag-Ibig ay Kanibalismo II by FitterkarmaA millennial like me adores this Gen Z song, haha. But what is not to like with the clever rhyming lines and funny lyrics like "Mag do-droga tayo, kimi lang bawal 'yun", and of course, the bridge: "Kanibalismo, 'di ka matiis Kapag inalis mo, ika’y mami-miss 'Di nagmamalinis, oh, ika'y mami-miss"




4) Bakasyon by Carousel CasualtiesWhen I listen to this, I see myself on vacation, wandering down a street in New York or walking through green fields with someone, in my head. The music just creates its own movie scenes, making ordinary moments feel cinematic and sweet.


5) Umaasa by Calein- s a profoundly nostalgic and heartbreaking  track that captures the universal pain of longing and holding on to a love that has already passed.It has simple lyrics with a great melody that makes it easy to listen to.






Political Vlogs


Political vlogs are now a staple in everyone's algorithm. For the past few years, I wasn't really into these things, but recently, I've found myself tuning in more often.

These channels offer commentary, sharp critiques, and insights from broader perspectives on our current situation. Mapapaisip ka talaga, and they will tickle your brain—though most of the time, you'll just end up getting upset or angry at our political environment.

First is Kwatro Alas, which is also broadcast on TV. It features four men from different backgrounds who trade political puns and banter while offering insightful commentary grounded in their respective fields. They also interview prominent political figures to grill them on pressing issues, unpack current events, and give viewers a raw, unscripted look at local politics.

I commend their insightful segments, such as Bardagulan with Ronald Llamas, where he—to put it bluntly—says unhinged things toward politicians in layman's terms, much like how people talk during a casual drinking session. There is also German Cut with Alan German, where he ponders, discusses, and explains important matters point by point, as well as Upo at Patola of Michael Fajatin, where they break down trending issues and address political hot takes with sharp humor and commentary.

However, if I have one major disagreement or critique regarding their show, it is how they handled their interview with Sandro Marcos. They humanized him and failed to ask tough questions about his family's history—specifically regarding their ill-gotten wealth, especially in light of his father's recent claim that no such wealth exists. By painting him in a positive light, they inadvertently aid in a dangerous narrative, especially given widespread concerns that the President is grooming his son as the next successor in the Marcos dynasty.

Second is Facts First by Christian Esguerra. A veteran journalist turned independent political blogger, Esguerra is known for delivering in-your-face, hard-hitting views on the political landscape. He is never afraid to call a spade a spade. Recently, he has been doubling down on calling out disinformation, holding public officials accountable through sharp, deep-dive interviews, and giving viewers a non-nonsense perspective on critical national issues. 



Lately, he has been targeted by pro-BBM bloggers for his critical comments toward the President. Instead of backing down, he doubled down with trademark sarcasm, casually dropping lines like, "Huy, wag n'yo namang sabihang masama ang Presidente!" to highlight the absurdity of their defense.

I really enjoy his dynamic with Ronald Llamas—their playful banter brings out a lighter side of Christian, showing his personal self in contrast to his usual serious demeanor.

If I want to catch up on the impeachment trial, I tune in to Chris Tan. His 1-hour vlog discussion of what happened in the impeachment trial, along with key snippets, is a must-watch. His ability to describe what happened while offering his commentary on legal and political implications makes complex courtroom developments easy to digest without having to sit through hours of continuous live coverage.


I also like his segment with Ronald Llamas on Heckle & Jive, with Llamas as the ultimate political heckler. If Chris is more pragmatic, Llamas is more funny, sharp, and brutally sarcastic—making their dynamic the perfect mix of high-level political strategy and pure entertainment.

Though Chris tends to be softer on the current administration—often commending their efforts and looking for the positive side—he still offers constructive criticism when policies fall short.

Lastly is "Deep Dive" by Richard Heydarian. I first watched him around the 2022 elections. His well-thought-out explanations and predictions are compelling; he is a political analyst, to be fair. His vlog is a mix of personal and serious content. I remember his live stream when Atty. Leila de Lima was about to be freed. He was teary-eyed and showed a lot of emotion on emotion on how the Duterte presidency destroyed the character and dignity of De Lima. 



His style is more casual converation at times, but he uses highfalutin words that a normal person doesn't understand that much. He also references philosophers like Friedrich Nietzsche and Antonio Gramsci, whom, to be honest, I didn't know about. But it will make you think and research into his references, and you'll end up agreeing with his narratives.

Sometimes his content is depressing since he lays out the possible outcomes in our politics, and they don't look pretty. I hope that the "adults" in our government, will listen to the insights of political analysts. From his "meta" style to now having a more polished studio and nice set-up, it is clear how much his channel has evolved. 

In hindsight, they are all men talking about politics. I can also mention "The Lovely Show," which also features Ronald Llamas. I am just starting to watch this, and I think it is also a mix of fun and serious talk. 


Realizing it now, this list has one thing in common, and it's Ronald Llamas, haha. The "Dalai Llamas" is in every "legit" political vlog/show. His way of explaining things resonates with the masses. But when things get serious, he can also go very deep, talking about philosophies and what not. It is that rare mix of street-smart political savvy and deep intellectual grounding that keeps me tuning in.

So, if you are a BBM supporter or a DDS, sorry, but your shows are not on the list. I don't listen to that kind of garbage.


August 30, 2026

Women who stand out

Being a woman in a world where conformity is rewarded and standing by your beliefs is frowned upon requires a quiet courage—because choosing to stay true to yourself isn't just about being different; it is an intentional act of taking up space on your own terms.

In these trying times, I've seen women who carry the torch to make the world a better, more just place for everyone. 

Risa Hontiveros comes to my mind.  She was elected to the Senate in 2016, at a time when the presidency reeked of misogyny and political opposition was constantly under fire. She fought her adversaries not with noise, but with undeniable facts, moral clarity, and sheer persistence. Despite being in the minority for so long, she still passed landmark laws focused heavily on public health, women's rights, social protection, human rights, and good governance. A quick Google search will show her major legislative victories, including the Philippine Mental Health Act (RA 11036), the 105-Day Expanded Maternity Leave Law (RA 11210), and the Safe Spaces Act or "Bastos Law" (RA 11313). Her pending legislative measures include the Anti-Dynasty Bill and reforms to the Party-List System Act. 


Roo Powell is the founder of SOSA (Safe from Online Sex Abuse), a nonprofit organization that works to combat online child sexual exploitation in collaboration with law enforcement. I first noticed her when I was watching Undercover Underage. She is a prime example of a woman who stands out by stepping into the shadows. Instead of turning away from an agonizing reality, she confronts it head-on, proving that true strength often means absorbing the world's ugliness so that the most vulnerable don't have to. Learning that she is Filipino made me even prouder, and I truly hope to see a counterpart to her work established here in the Philippines.


Gang Badoy was my role model when I was in college. I knew her through Rock Ed Radio and the concerts she produced. Rock Ed was a volunteer-driven initiative designed to foster civic engagement and provide alternative education to the youth. It used music, arts, poetry, sports, and photography as tools to educate young people on critical social issues and human rights. By partnering with artists, writers, and prominent local musicians, she bridged the gap between youth culture and social activism.
I thought I wanted to be like her—doing things she liked, such as listening to music, meeting musicians, and having a drink or two with them. 

But as I dug deeper, I learned that she also taught inside maximum-security facilities, including the New Bilibid Prison, bringing alternative education, books, and art therapy to inmates.

When there were typhoons and other disasters, she turned the Jam 88.3 radio booth into a live emergency response coordination center to connect stranded victims with rescue efforts and relief distribution. I still remember listening to her broadcast during those moments.


What makes women like Gang Badoy, Risa Hontiveros and Roo Powell stand out isn't just their extraordinary bravery; it is the path they clear for everyone coming after them. They show us that standing by your principles—even when it is frowned upon, even when it is dangerous—is the only way progress actually happens. They carry the torch so that the rest of us don't have to walk in the dark

August 29, 2026

2 Dekada



What???? I've been MIA for 4 years, and now that I’m back, I just realized it's been 20 years since I started writing here. Sure, I post a lot of nonsense, but looking back, this might be the longest-running platform I've ever used.

I started as a college student ranting about my college life, music, politics, and other musings—a naive girl who didn't know what the future held for her.

But fast-forward 20 years, and I am still that naive girl—well, maybe a lady—who is still exploring her world. So many things have changed, yet so much has remained the same.

I still get kilig when hearing good music and lyrics, still attend live gigs even in my late 30s, and still get irritated by our politics.

In these 20 years, I've seen the bands I was just listening to when I started this in 2006 live. I never thought I would be able to see the Eraserheads not once, but twice.I never thought they’d reunite because of politics. Also, if you had told me another Marcos would become president, I’d probably have packed my bags and migrated to another country.

If you had told me back then that I would see The Strokes and Arctic Monkeys in the same year, I would have told you that you were insane.

We've faced a pandemic—another occurrence that we never expected. And then came the 2022 election. Right after the pandemic, we started going out to make sure we could fight for a brighter future—hoping that the liwanag sa dilim would guide us through the darkness. But we lost, we failed, and we're still facing adversities. 

If you had told me 20 years ago that we’d have AI to check my grammar, I would have laughed in your face and told you I wished it had come sooner so hindi naman ka-hiya-hiya itong blog na 'to, haha.

Now, I look forward to another 20 years. I will be 50++ haha! Sana naman our world is a better place by then, though I am not so optimistic. I hope in 20 years I am still me—just with a newfound peace with what I do and happy in my own way.


And here is a song from outerhope maybe also written 20 years ago.





Whew


So much has happened since my last post back in 2022. Where do I even begin?

The UniTeam won, and today, our divided country is watching an impeachment trial unfold for the Vice President. Sara Duterte, who is currently facing these charges, could still end up as our next president if she survives this. Meanwhile, almost all of Luzon is submerged in floods—and to think it’s just the habagat, not even a typhoon. Add to that the ongoing outrage over flood control corruption and reports of active shootings in schools.

How did we even get here?