My Silence is Deafening

"Sound the alarm 
What we have built is gone
Our battle has just begun
Mayday! Mayday!"


My "new" office mates perceives me as a quiet, serious and boring lady. I don't really talk to them because I don't have any good things to say to them.  If they let me talk they will hear lots of "bleeps" in my sentences. haha.

 I feel like sometimes people expect me to talk and talk about whatever because its the normal thing to do. When someone like my co worker who has to make sarcastic remarks about how quiet I am, it just creates this image about me, and I feel like I have to live up to that image. It just makes me act a certain way, even though I do try to socialize once in a while, people don't realize it and still perceive me to be a certain way.

But in reality I am funny as hell. ask my real friends. they know. Well my friends from my company took sometime to be close to me. Because I really don't talk a lot

In sociology that it's called labeling theory. We are shy around people before we get to know them, therefore they label us as being a shy and quiet person, therefore we act how they expect us to and stay a shy and quiet person around them.

OPM Once again once more

"Ito ay para sa mga masa
sa lahat ng nawalan ng pag-asa
sa lahat ng aming nakasama
sa lahat ng hirap at pagdurusa
naaalala nyo pa ba
binigyan namin kayo ng ligaya"

For the past few years my love and undying admiration for OPM died a little bit. Blame it to my thesis, constant travels, closing of NU 107 and job hunting.

I haven't bought any OPM album. Unlike before, when i was still in highschool and my only savings are coming from my school baon, i still have the chance to buy an album worth 250 to 300.

Now i have work and I'm earning, i haven't bought any album.

I remember buying Pupil's "Wildlife" and "wildlife Repackage" Album. That's how fanatic I am with opm bands/music. Now they released their third album last year and still haven't bought it.

But now i'm starting to watch gigs again. I think my love for OPM is coming back.

Right now I'm reading articles about OPM. Like the article "The Life and death of OPM" and "OPM isn't dead you idiot".

For me, OPM is alive and it is slowly  recuperating from a deadly disease.

Well network giants, movie outfits are reviving OPM classics like the songs of Eraserheads and APO.

But like in this article said, OPM isn't dead because OPM is not just about the music you hear in the mainstream, there are lots and I mean lot's of good music waiting to be discovered by Filipino fans.

You know how much I despise K-POP music. I can't understand why we Filipinos are into KPOP songs where we couldn't understand a single word. Well, their title of the songs and chorus or at least one word are in english pala. haha

I couldn't take it when people buying KPOP albums instead of OPM albums.

Could someone give give a reason why should I listen to KPOP?

PS: I promise I will love OPM music again like I did before :)

My Silence is threatening

You don't want to hear me talk
Because only the truth shall i say
I won't join you in your walk
So conversations won't be in our way

My silence is deaftening
I say things in my head
My silence is threatening
Run fast ! Go ahead

When watching a gig sitting...

"Gusto mo bang sumama?"

So I wasn't able to watch Ely's Hardrock gig because it's my friend's sorta despedida. So when I found out that he will have Ayala mall tour, I said to myself I should go there 'bout fucking time :)

So last Aug 17, Ely was at Glorietta. The show starts at 6:30 and I left my office at Taguig around 5:30. Silly me, I didn't take the free shuttle because my office mate was there. So I took the MRT instead and... sobrang jam packed parang nasa mosh pit ako grabe. Since sa Edsa naman ako sumakay at sa Ayala baba dun lang ako sa bukana tumabi. Pero nung pagbaba na sa Ayala... Sardinas pre.. di ako makababa.. good thing there was a lady who tried pushing me in a good way. She is so nice. Sabi niya pa may baba pa oh. Eh since I am so small may nagsabi na "Nasaan?" haha. Buti talaga naka baba ako.

Anyways, I arrived he was singing "Higante". I found a spot at the side. I could barely see him, good thing there was a huge screen. I didn't mind if I will be watching him through the screen na parang youtube lang. gusto ko lang naman siya marinig. I don't know if the sound system is bad or because I'm behind the speakers... I couldn't hear his words when he is speaking to the audience. I was just standing there and feel na feel ko yung mga songs niya. I KNOW ALL OF HIS SONGS THAT HE SANG SA CONCERT. Pati yung sa Wanted Bedspacer. Unlike yung iba puro eraserheads songs lang ang alam and for me they don't deserve to be there. 

Yesterday I watched again his gig sa Trinoma. I told myself dapat makaupo or makabili man lang ako ng ticket. you just need to buy worth 500 from any Trinoma merchants. I bought memory card worth 400. so I need 100 more naglakad lakad pa ko to search for 100 worth na bagay. But I am getting tired so I went to the activity center and just wait for the concert to start. I am little bit disappointed because I already bought 400 worth item and I just like to give the people there my 100 just to have a ticket. Good thing is there were lots of empty seats. So nagpapasok na yung guard. Nakpasok ako!

So I was seating and patiently waiting for Ely.

Then he entered and his first song was "Alapaap" and followed by songs from his Wanted Bedspacer album and In Love and War.

Pangit pa la pag nakaupo di ko masyado ma feel unlike nung nakatayo ang ako. I like to stand but bouncers wouldn't allowed us.




I like his new version of Magasin. Thanks to the "madalian orchestra". Actually Magasin is my least favorite song. But when he sang it Live... It so different I love it very much.

Then sa Trinoma this time I could understand his words. I can see him.

 I know Ely doesn't talk much sa gig with Pupil. Madalas si Yan ang nag e-entertain or nag sasalita in between songs.Since this an Ely Buendia show he needs to talk. At first medyo hesitant parin. his first words sa crowd ay "Hello!"... Hello Kitty?.. Haha.. But I don't mind. I am there because of the songs and not about him talking...

But he is funny naman...

Merong instance na in the middle of the song natawa siya because some guy ay nagsabi ng "I LOVE YOU ELY". natawa ako sa reaction niya..

Anyways... his last song is "Ang Huling Elbimbo". And it is nakaka tindig balahibo talaga.

My Ultraelectro favorite songs na kinanta niya sa concert ay
*Wanted Bed spacer
*Huwag mo nang Itanong
*Huwag kang matakot
*Magasin
*Ang Huling Elbimbo

My conclusion is it's a lot better watching a concert standing... Watching a gig is giving me a different kind of "high".... and He may not be the best singer, entertainer  but Ely Buendia is still the best... there is no substitute for the real thing!... (Take that the reunion movie/soundtrack)