My Silence is Deafening

"Sound the alarm 
What we have built is gone
Our battle has just begun
Mayday! Mayday!"


My "new" office mates perceives me as a quiet, serious and boring lady. I don't really talk to them because I don't have any good things to say to them.  If they let me talk they will hear lots of "bleeps" in my sentences. haha.

 I feel like sometimes people expect me to talk and talk about whatever because its the normal thing to do. When someone like my co worker who has to make sarcastic remarks about how quiet I am, it just creates this image about me, and I feel like I have to live up to that image. It just makes me act a certain way, even though I do try to socialize once in a while, people don't realize it and still perceive me to be a certain way.

But in reality I am funny as hell. ask my real friends. they know. Well my friends from my company took sometime to be close to me. Because I really don't talk a lot

In sociology that it's called labeling theory. We are shy around people before we get to know them, therefore they label us as being a shy and quiet person, therefore we act how they expect us to and stay a shy and quiet person around them.

OPM Once again once more

"Ito ay para sa mga masa
sa lahat ng nawalan ng pag-asa
sa lahat ng aming nakasama
sa lahat ng hirap at pagdurusa
naaalala nyo pa ba
binigyan namin kayo ng ligaya"

For the past few years my love and undying admiration for OPM died a little bit. Blame it to my thesis, constant travels, closing of NU 107 and job hunting.

I haven't bought any OPM album. Unlike before, when i was still in highschool and my only savings are coming from my school baon, i still have the chance to buy an album worth 250 to 300.

Now i have work and I'm earning, i haven't bought any album.

I remember buying Pupil's "Wildlife" and "wildlife Repackage" Album. That's how fanatic I am with opm bands/music. Now they released their third album last year and still haven't bought it.

But now i'm starting to watch gigs again. I think my love for OPM is coming back.

Right now I'm reading articles about OPM. Like the article "The Life and death of OPM" and "OPM isn't dead you idiot".

For me, OPM is alive and it is slowly  recuperating from a deadly disease.

Well network giants, movie outfits are reviving OPM classics like the songs of Eraserheads and APO.

But like in this article said, OPM isn't dead because OPM is not just about the music you hear in the mainstream, there are lots and I mean lot's of good music waiting to be discovered by Filipino fans.

You know how much I despise K-POP music. I can't understand why we Filipinos are into KPOP songs where we couldn't understand a single word. Well, their title of the songs and chorus or at least one word are in english pala. haha

I couldn't take it when people buying KPOP albums instead of OPM albums.

Could someone give give a reason why should I listen to KPOP?

PS: I promise I will love OPM music again like I did before :)

My Silence is threatening

You don't want to hear me talk
Because only the truth shall i say
I won't join you in your walk
So conversations won't be in our way

My silence is deaftening
I say things in my head
My silence is threatening
Run fast ! Go ahead

When watching a gig sitting...

"Gusto mo bang sumama?"

So I wasn't able to watch Ely's Hardrock gig because it's my friend's sorta despedida. So when I found out that he will have Ayala mall tour, I said to myself I should go there 'bout fucking time :)

So last Aug 17, Ely was at Glorietta. The show starts at 6:30 and I left my office at Taguig around 5:30. Silly me, I didn't take the free shuttle because my office mate was there. So I took the MRT instead and... sobrang jam packed parang nasa mosh pit ako grabe. Since sa Edsa naman ako sumakay at sa Ayala baba dun lang ako sa bukana tumabi. Pero nung pagbaba na sa Ayala... Sardinas pre.. di ako makababa.. good thing there was a lady who tried pushing me in a good way. She is so nice. Sabi niya pa may baba pa oh. Eh since I am so small may nagsabi na "Nasaan?" haha. Buti talaga naka baba ako.

Anyways, I arrived he was singing "Higante". I found a spot at the side. I could barely see him, good thing there was a huge screen. I didn't mind if I will be watching him through the screen na parang youtube lang. gusto ko lang naman siya marinig. I don't know if the sound system is bad or because I'm behind the speakers... I couldn't hear his words when he is speaking to the audience. I was just standing there and feel na feel ko yung mga songs niya. I KNOW ALL OF HIS SONGS THAT HE SANG SA CONCERT. Pati yung sa Wanted Bedspacer. Unlike yung iba puro eraserheads songs lang ang alam and for me they don't deserve to be there. 

Yesterday I watched again his gig sa Trinoma. I told myself dapat makaupo or makabili man lang ako ng ticket. you just need to buy worth 500 from any Trinoma merchants. I bought memory card worth 400. so I need 100 more naglakad lakad pa ko to search for 100 worth na bagay. But I am getting tired so I went to the activity center and just wait for the concert to start. I am little bit disappointed because I already bought 400 worth item and I just like to give the people there my 100 just to have a ticket. Good thing is there were lots of empty seats. So nagpapasok na yung guard. Nakpasok ako!

So I was seating and patiently waiting for Ely.

Then he entered and his first song was "Alapaap" and followed by songs from his Wanted Bedspacer album and In Love and War.

Pangit pa la pag nakaupo di ko masyado ma feel unlike nung nakatayo ang ako. I like to stand but bouncers wouldn't allowed us.




I like his new version of Magasin. Thanks to the "madalian orchestra". Actually Magasin is my least favorite song. But when he sang it Live... It so different I love it very much.

Then sa Trinoma this time I could understand his words. I can see him.

 I know Ely doesn't talk much sa gig with Pupil. Madalas si Yan ang nag e-entertain or nag sasalita in between songs.Since this an Ely Buendia show he needs to talk. At first medyo hesitant parin. his first words sa crowd ay "Hello!"... Hello Kitty?.. Haha.. But I don't mind. I am there because of the songs and not about him talking...

But he is funny naman...

Merong instance na in the middle of the song natawa siya because some guy ay nagsabi ng "I LOVE YOU ELY". natawa ako sa reaction niya..

Anyways... his last song is "Ang Huling Elbimbo". And it is nakaka tindig balahibo talaga.

My Ultraelectro favorite songs na kinanta niya sa concert ay
*Wanted Bed spacer
*Huwag mo nang Itanong
*Huwag kang matakot
*Magasin
*Ang Huling Elbimbo

My conclusion is it's a lot better watching a concert standing... Watching a gig is giving me a different kind of "high".... and He may not be the best singer, entertainer  but Ely Buendia is still the best... there is no substitute for the real thing!... (Take that the reunion movie/soundtrack)

Blessed.

"No alarms and no surprises please..."

Blessed. I am truthfully grateful of what's happening in my life. I may complain a lot these past few months. They transferred me to the client and it means I can't be with my freaking friends. I am awfully sad when I am at work because I miss the laugh trips, merienda, lunch breaks we always share.

Yesterday we had a quarterly assembly. All i know is  that they will introduce the newly regularized employees. I'm surprised to learn that I'm also in the promoted employees.

I realized that... what the hell I'm a good employee... partida i don't talk that much.. hehehe

My sadness truly paid off.

Demented

I am not free as a bee

But I wander like a python

I am not as pretty as I can be

All I have is a stupid fashion

Pare ko

Here is the mellow version of Pare ko...

when i first heard it live was abou last2008 when Pupil launched their 2nd album wild life... i must stay that i had goosebumps and i felt very lucky that i heard him sing that song again...

I haven't seen Pupil nowadays because my schedule won't permit me but hopefully i can go to Ely's greatest hits concert at Hard Rock Cafe on Aug 3...

things are better with me

things are better with me

i will let you enter in my heart

with no hesitations

nor restrictions

with no limitations

thus i am willing to wait

till your heart is willing to love again

i am but an odd girl

who loves everything that is blurred

Greatest Hits

Nagpa reserve na ko kaso di pa nababayaran yung ticket. ako lang mag-isa... Loner mode. haha walang gustong sumama sa kin haha... 

Will hear "Wanted Bedspacer" songs for the fist time na LIVE!! I heard kasama yun eh... Here is the song wanted bed spacer

Nuff said.

Last Nite

LSS  over The Strokes' "Last Nite"

Last night, she said:
"Oh, baby, I feel so down.
Oh it turns me off,
When I feel left out"

So I walked out:
"Oh, baby, don't care no more
I know this for sure,
I'm walkin' out that door"

Well, I've been in town for just about fifteen minutes now
And Baby, I feel so down
And I don't know why
I keep walkin' for miles

See, people they don't understand
No, girlfriends, they can't understand
Your Grandsons, they won't understand
On top of this, I ain't ever gonna understand...

Last night, she said:
"Oh, baby, don't feel so down.
Oh, it turns me off,
When I feel left out"

So I, I turn 'round:
"Oh, baby, gonna be alright"
It was a great big lie
'Cause I left that night, yeah

Oh, people they don't understand
No, girlfriends, they won't understand
In spaceships, they won't understand
And me, I ain't ever gonna understand...

Last night, she said:
"Oh, baby, I feel so down.
See, it turns me off,
When I feel left out"

So I, I turn 'round:
"Oh, little girl, I don't care no more.
I know this for sure,
I'm walking out that door," yeah




I'm searching for a lullaby version of this song but what i found is this: Adele's version of the song! I like it very much! 

Let me know

"So please please please let me get what i want... lord knows it would be the first time"

At first I thought you like me. But according to your facebook status you don't want any commitment. So okay. I'm just here waiting...

and waiting until you will realize that I'm the right one for you and nobody else. I know you are hurt but not everybody will be like your ex. Sabi nga sa mga mall "Try Me".

Our "date" was fun. You are talkative as hell as always :) You've open up to me and you said that I'm like your ex. I don't know if I will take that as a compliment... but who cares... I will let the things go like this...

Don't worry I will wait until the end...

My first post this year...

a lot of things happened. a lot.. i have a job right now. i won an i pad few days after my birth day. i have a social life and love life soon... hehe... i promised not to complain about my job starting today. i know i don't like it that much but i must be contented for now. i also realized that i'm very blessed with people i'm surrounded with. and to the person who is stepping out in my life... i will miss you... we've known for only a short period of time but it seems we've known each other for a lifetime. we may not be what we wanted to be but that is life...

Best OPM Videos for me...

In no particular order. I can't make up my mind.

Slapshock and Jonas

I don't need to say much... just watch the videos... :)

Deliverance

Should I run
Or should I hide?
Amidst adversities
I have no liberty 
Too much pride
Give me some guide
Help me walk down the path
I can't even do simple math
Please embrace me with your words
You are my only Lord
Too much crowd
I'm not proud
Too much distraction
Give me some protection
Through you I can wonder
Even if it thunders
Solidify my imaginations
I'm ready for your castigation 

LaBoracay

Blue Moon

Be my rockstar

Be my rockstar

Look at me

Blinded by the shows I see         

Hear me

Lend me your ears to hear my voice of admiration

It seems you can’t decipher my ideas

I just want you to be my shining rockstar

You can replace the place

Where the one I am longing for was pasted

In an area beside my thirsty heart

Because it seems he will forever be a dream

That it will take gazillion years to be true

But now for me he is just another wannabe

Having you is far from my dream

Where rockstars seems dominating the scene

You don’t need to carry a tune

All you need is to let me feel I am loved

Because my heart seems to be marooned

So lonely, so unhappy

So now do you wanna be my shining rockstar?

picture: that's my drawing!! :)

Trances

Trances

I dreamt of stars and honey bees

Climbing some narrow trees

Playing in the meadows

Breaking all the windows

Holding the rays of the sun

Kissing the cheeks of our son

So far away the wind blows

Amazed to see you glow

Words coming out from my mouth

Are quite simple, plain and mundane

Words unspoken

Hearts left unbroken

I woke up and walked down the lane

But I bumped my head then I dreamed once again

picture: my painting :)

Magna

Magnakaw ay di biro
Maghapon nagtatago
Hindi naman umaamin
Parang laseng kung magsinungaling
Pag sinimulang kwestyunin
Parang anghel ang nakasalin
Sa kanya makikita
Ang mga salitang "Oo ako ay nagkasala"
Sana ay inisip dati pa
Ang epekto ng bawat barya
Na kinuha sa bulsa ng madlang nagdurusa
Kayamanan ay panandalian lamang
kasiyahan at respeto sa sarili ay
panghabang buhay mong kailangan

If it ends now

I will be gone worthless

The days are done and numbered

But here I am covered

With everything but love

With everything but luck

If it ends now

I didn't give it all

I am not what you wanted

I am not what you asked for

Hoping that I'm still significant

Hoping I still matter

If it ends now

I'm not ready

My purpose is not yet created

I know you hated me

If it ends now

It will end now 

For A Day

Let me be with you

Even for a day

Let me sing you some blues

Will tell stories that happened in May

You don't need to know the truth

It will just hurt through and through

Please don't ever leave

I will surely grieve

Days, months will never be enough

But  hours is all we have

When life gets rough

Remember I left one thing and that's my heart

Parang walang nangyari

Ganoon na lang ulit

Balik sa dati

Na parang walang nangyari

Di na bale

Mukhang ikaw naman ay nakangiti

Wag na lang balikan ang mga sandali

Noong ikaw ay lumuha at tumulo sa labi

Dahan dahan ang lakad

Naka sulat na sa mga palad

ang iyong hinahanap na di mawari

At balik na lang na parang walang nangyari

Minamahal kita (sobra, sobra)

Sana tumila na ang mga luha

Isara na ang mga bunganga (wag nganganga nganga)

Hush, hush, hush

Hush my little baby

Everything will be ok

When the sun is down

I'll be here to stay

Let's play with your toys

I will teach you about boys

This will bring such joy

Hush my little baby

learn to be strong

One day everything seems so wrong

Please don't ever hate

Because this is our fate

You must know I'll do everything

I'm willing to enter a maze

Just to see your face

Hush my little baby

Please don't cry

Papa's gonna sing you a lullaby

When his voice gets dry

Papa's gonna buy you a rye

Hush my little baby

Don't say a word

Papa's gonna buy you the whole world

But the whole world will be very tough

Hope his love for you will be enough

Ako na!!! ako na ang ni-retweet ni ely!!!

shet... one lazy afternoon i tried tweeting famous people that i rarely do... i tweeted yan yuzon that i love his song "pony" so much... and about a minute he said thank you... aww... so sweet. it is merely a simple thank you but it means a lot to me... pansinin ba naman niya ako... wee...tapos i'm reading tweets na sine-send kay ely buedia ... and na challenge akong ma tweet or retweet man lang... sabi nga ng isang nag tweet sa kanya "ultraelectromagnetic snob" si ely... haha... kung ma retweet or tweet man siya na galing sa fans kailangan nakakatuwa or something very interesting... hindi yung puro "idol kita sr. ely"... chu chu... and then this happened....

I said that people should download "bungo sa bangin" because it's legal and free... then it was retweeted 11 times!!! weehheeee... naks minsan lang ako magpapansin kay ely na retweet pa!!!... ayan tuloy ma papadalas ang kaka tweet ko kahit walang nagbabasa.. who cares? i will just because...

Guilt free download

"Sino ka ba Pepe?.... Sino ka nga...Sino ka nga ba Pepe?" - Radioactivesago Project

I want to share this site where you can download RockEd's Rock Rizal. http://soundcloud.com/rockedphilippines Celebrate Jose Rizal's 150th Birth anniversary while listening to today's best musicians including Ely Buendia, Sandwich, Radioactivesago Project and many more. I heard in Gang Badoy's interview (founder of RockEd Philippines) she wanted this songs to be free and can be downloaded so everyone from the Philippines can hear these amazing songs. She also said she like that these songs will be our LSS and not "Baby baby baby oh...". Listen to Radioactivesago projects "Sino Si Pepe". I'm sure ma LSS ka dito.

Siguro video

Hindi ko trip at type si yeng constantino pero trip ko yung mga videos niya. hindi siya mala sara geronimo o other pop stars na pare-pareho yung itsura at tema ng videos...

gusto ko yung mga videos... videos lang ha... kasi nag iisip sila out of the box... naks... actually para sa akin may epekto yung video... parang nagiging ok itong kanta kasi ok yung video... #justsaying

The Ramones

Salamat!!

another video from the Lourd!

Funniest line: Salamat Sen. Miriam Santiago ang boring ng senado kung wala ka...

Duterte Finger

Hanep ka Lourd!

Noontime High

This is so simple yet so funny.

This segment of Eat bulaga makes my boring day not so boring at all.

Muli

My sentiment for the month... of perhaps for the whole year...

Walang katulad mo, walang kasing-lakas ng tama mo.
Salamat sa iyo aking guro't gabay.
Dahil sa iyo, ang buhay ko'y nagka-saysay.
Sa malas kong ito, minsan sinwerte din ako.
Nang makilala ang taong tulad mo.

Pasensya na, sana maintindihan mo.
Gusto lang kitang makasamang... muli.
[ ]
Sa likod ng skwela, sa tindahan ni Nanang.
Daloy ng pag-ibig do'n kong unang natikman.
Sa 'daming alaala, sana tandaan ninyo.
Ang problema ng isa, problema ng grupo.

Pasensya na, sana maintindihan mo.
Gusto lang kitang makasamang... muli.

Para sa lahat ng minahal ko ng tunay.
Andito't lumisan, sa puso ko'y buhay pa rin kayo.
Buhay kayo, sa puso ko'y buhay pa rin kayo.

The end

"Minsan ay hindi ko na alam ang nangyayari Kahit na anong gawin Lahat ng bagay ay merong hangganan
Dahil ngayon tayo ay nilimot ng kahapon Di na mapipilitang buhayin ang ating pinagsamahan Ngunit kung sakaling mapadaan baka Ikaw ay aking tawagan Dahil minsan tayo ay naging Tunay na magkaibigan"


It's the end. It's finish. It's gone... it's done...

It's hard to admit that everything we shared, the memories, laughter, jokes, problems, alcohol... are now gone. It seems we are different persons. It seems we don't know each other. How could you forget 4 years?

Maybe we had each other when its the time we needed someone... but I guess now I'm not needed... now... is different...

Sydney Opera House

Once in a lifetime experience to see one 7 wonders of the world. So when I have a chance to see it or wherever I am, I took a picture in every angles I can imagine. Next time I want to watch an opera or play.. not just see the architectural design..

My Zoo Photographs

Fishy

Close To You

"Why do birds suddenly appear every time you are near?"

Won an album!!

i won a hilera album last night while listening to jam 88.3.., i'm too sleepy to tell what happened just want to post picture... will edit this post when i'm back to normal... if i can...