It’s done

Counting days at night
Lifting me with your memories
Hysterically I said to myself
You will not be mine anymore
Our friendship is done
The class is gone
Loving you
It’s the most fatal decision I made
It left me scathed

Umaaraw Umuulan

“Umaaraw umuulan… ang buhay ay sadyang ganyan”

Habang sinusulat ko ito kakatila lang ng ulan… mukhang babalik nanaman si summer. Matagal na akong di nakakaligo sa ulan. Kasi naman wrong timing lagi si ulan. Pag umulan na sa school ako o kaya wala sa mood maligo. Kanina tsambsa si ulan. Tapos kumakanta kami ng Here comes the sun”. Ayun umulan ng malakas. Naligo ako kanina kasama ko ang kapatid ko. Masaya. Minsan ko lang kasi gingawa ito. Parang nagbalik ako sa pagkabata.

Kahapon naman nasa supernova ako ulit. Umuulan din nun. Nag-uusap kami tapos medyo Malabo ang sagot ko. Tapos sabi ni anj ang labo mong kausap. Sabi ko naulan kasi eh…. Haha… wasak talaga…

Senti evening

"Wanted bedspacer na mabait... yung panay marunong magligpit"

I went to supernova today. Ito yung kapalit sa ojt sana namin. I am really nervous because it is my first time to go there alone because marj is too lazy to go. I really have problem with directions. And supernova is so far from super pasay. I’m really scared. I thought I will not be able to be my destination. I usually spend my day at nova using the net. I really don’t listen to the lecturer. Nakakatamad naman kasi. Nang pauwi lis and anj wanted to drink starbucks coffee. I was jokingly telling them na ilibre nila ako. I didn’t know na totohanin nila. I love coffee but I’m really simple girl. I’d rather keep my 120 pesos than buying one starbucks coffee. Parang unreasonable talaga yung price. Tapos I rode at the MRT. I am armed with my mp3. Simple things make me happy. Walking or traveling alone at night while listening to my mp3 is included there. Pero I’m really nervous because there was some place where it was really dark and I’m petrified parang anytime someone could get my belongings. Hehehe… tapos ang feeling mo lagging may tao sa likod because of the light effects. Nagiging dalawa yung shadow ko. Wasak talaga… oh… I downloaded wanted bed spacer album of ely buendia. Ang tagal ko ng naghahanap niyan. Wala akong Makita sa record bars. Ang astig ng “Wanted Bed spacer”!! pinaka favorite ko yan.. sunod “santo”. Tapos nag download din ako ng sa taken by cars. Di ba sabi ko balak kon bumile ng album nila kasi hinde kompleto yung na download ko… pwes… ngayon hindi na ako bibili… nakumpleto ko na eh… wahahaha…

The truth about him

“Sunod sunod na kamalasan ang dumadating di ko na alam ang aking gagawin”

I know this is something stupid. But I am confused. Gago kasi siya eh! Nananahimik ako bigla na lang niya ginugulo ang mundo ko. It is just a fucking infatuation! Yes infatuation is the right word… I looked in the dictionary and this is the meaning of it. Infatuated-foolish; completely carried away by unreasoning passion or attraction. Attraction… he is not my type if you are talking about physical attributes. He is not handsome! He is antipatiko, arrogant and has a big fat tummy. I hate him for being around and distracting me. I just keep on thinking about him and the stupid things he did to me. Bakit naman hindi, I am studying in an exclusive school and I am not really exposed to guys. No wonder he will be the main subject of my brain. I hate him for doing things that makes me vulnerable. I know that he is insensitive and not aware because he is too old and too busy to think of those things. I guess that he is also like that to some selected people. But I just feel something is different. I wanted to know what he feels for me. If he feels the same, thought that is stupid to think about. Nakakainis kasi siya… he should be considerate to a young girl’s feelings. Why he touched my fucking hands and why he let me feels different because of the way he is treating me. Fuck that guy!

H.K.

“Here comes the sun… here comes the sun and I say its alright…”

A lot of things happened to me. I don’t know where to start.

Oh well, I will just tell you the story about my Hong Kong experience. Yes! We went to Hong Kong with my whole family plus my relatives at my mother’s side. It’s really an unforgettable moment because it’s a rare event that we all of us will be in a vacation. I was the official photographer. Hahaha!! My father let me hold the camera. I capture every minute that is worth remembering like we are in the airport, in the airplane… this is the first time me and my brothers ride in the plane. I was beside my big bro… I know he is being sweet brother or being nurse because he kept on asking me if I feel like vomiting. I don’t have much stomach in traveling… haha!! I mean I have this history of felling dizzy or vomiting while traveling. But thank God nothing happens like that. I felt dizzy for a while. I hate how slow the airport service. We spent our first day on waiting. We only have 3 days on 2 nights. Because we don’t have any time to go to some place we just went to the mall riding on a MTR.

That’s when comparing happens. We rode on MTR, MRT in the Philippines. In the MTR station it’s really nice. Walang wala talaa ang MRT. Ang bilis pa. so yun… then we ate somewhere.. and it’s my first time to hear a restaurant that doesn’t have any spoon and forks. I know how to use chopsticks but my father and uncle doesn’t know how to.

2nd day will be the highlight of the whole event. We went to Hong Kong Disneyland.

On the last day we just shopped. Basta I will never forget this. I’m really forgetful. But don’t worry I may forget dates but I can’t forget the memories.

Toyang

“They try to tell us we are too young, too young to really be in love…”

One lazy afternoon, I’m looking at some old pictures while listening to my iPod (hehehe… actually it’s only a cheap mp3 mas maganda pakinggan yung iPod eh..) nostalgia hits me. Maybe thanks to the songs that randomly plays like Patlang by Cambio and For you I will by… I don’t know. Well walang ka connect connect yung songs in my life pero surprisingly I was able to listen to the lyrics while looking at the pictures at maganda yung lyrics. I saw my pictures when I was about a year old till 10. I saw the pictures with my foreign cousins, uncles and aunties. Then I realized some things… Like why old people are scared when they hear the word birthday. For some reasons, I got scared now being old. When you are old tons of responsibilities awaits you. Idagdag mo pa ang libo-libong bayarin. I am 19 years old and 1 to 2 years from now I will be dealing with adult stuffs like paying TAXES!!, voting, paying bills… I don’t like it. Ngayon ko na realize that I just want to be a kid again. You know just playing around without thinking how cruel or hard life is… without thinking magkano na ba ang meralco bill namin ngayon… but when I was still a kid I remember that I wish I’m already an adult to have all the freedom in the world…

But I guess I am not too young at all!!

Minsan…

November 25 (Tuesday)

“minsan tayo’y naging tunay na magkaibigan”

During a 6 hour break you can expect anything and everything. Me, anj, lis, and marj went to our org booth to get our org shirt. But there is no one there so we just talk there because we know that that will be our “tambayan” next school year since we will now be the one in charge in our org. we will gonna be 4th year na nga pala next year. We are now talking about who will be the president, vice etc for our org. I was joking everybody that I’m rooting for anj. Si anj pa naman ay pala absent. Hahaha. Then they start putting names in a paper who will be the next president, etc. then they asked me “saan mo gusto?” so I said I want to be the org moderator!! Hahaha!! Taas ng pangarap! I also said I am contented to be the org mascot! After laughing very hard we went to the music room to do our music project. Our tawanan still continued. Ang saya!! Haha!! Then lunch came they are joking me that they want to go to our house and eat. I said I don’t like. Then when we about to eat our lunch they are heading to where I am riding the jeepney. So what I did I went in a separate way. Tinaguan ko sila. Tapos sumakay akong LRT. Eh I left my cellphone. Then when I arrived they texted my mother asking if I were already there. then the next thing I know they were outside our gate. So ayun pinapasok ko sila. Tawanan ulit. And they said “nag aalala ako sa iyo, akala naming na kidnap ka na ng mga naka FX”. It’s like an experiment for me. I proved that di nila ako matitiis. They won’t be happy without me!!! Hahaha then we went to MOA. We ate first at the …. I forgot,,, basta they are selling crepes. Nilibre kami ni Lis. Then we went to Time Zone ang saya. Naglaro kami tapos nagpa picture din. Then we didn’t notice…. Late na kami for our 5:00pm class!!! Then we arrived in our school mga 5:30++. Wala lang ang saya lang talaga.

Lis and anj are my friends since 1st year college. I must say that I was having hard time dealing with them in my 1st year. But as 1st year finishes ayun nalaman na naming ang kiliti ng bawat isa. Si Marj naman, classmate ko siya since 1st year high school. Ngayon nagsama sama kaming apat! Rambol talaga pag ganun. I think that what’s separating us from our blockmates. We’ve been together for quite some time and we’ve been through a lot… naks… so wala na silang magagawa dun… I realized that I can’t imagine myself be with friends with other blockmates if ever this isn’t my course. Di ko lang talaga alam…..

Ngunit mabilis maglaho ang kahapon… sana ay wag kalimutan an gaming pinagsamahan. Kung sakaling mapadaan sana ay huwag kalimutan na minsan tayo ay nagging tunay na magkaibigan…

I was Taken by Cars!

“I think you got the wrong idea… I think you got the wrong idea…”

I am into Taken by Cars in these hot summer days… The Endings of the New Kind is the first OPM album I downloaded in the net while my boring professor was discussing something. I am really into buying original cds especially OPM albums. Blame my boring professor for downloading their album. When I heard their first single “Uh Oh” I thought it is by a foreign artist. I don’t know if it’s good or bad thing. I think their music is shoegaze that’s how they described it I heard them saying in their interview. I really don’t know what does it means. Anyways I am really into Alternative, Rock and Rock alternative music but because of these OPM artist like Up dharma down, Taken by Cars and Sinosikat? they let me discover and love other types of music. They are really great. I am a kind of listener who first listens to our own. Yes, I am also listening foreign bands like Incubus, Weezer, The Killers and Panic at the disco but I don’t buy their albums because they are very expensive!! Hahaha… I just download their songs. Actually I have about 30 original albums of OPM artists. I collected it for 3-4 years. Ang tagal di ba? Hehehe…

My favorite track from the album will be “December 2 Chapter VII. I really like their sound although it is something fresh to my ears. Let’s add the beautiful and magnificent videos of their songs. I just saw “Neon Brights”. Surprisingly Jake Cuenca is the main character for that song. I think the band didn’t even appear on the video. I love the effects they incorporate in that video. May pag ka artistic yung theme. I also like the idea na Jake has this “unexplained power”. I don’t know who directed it. I guess it’s Wincy Ong because he is on the video too. By the way I have a crush on Sven… hahaha… ang weird niya kasi!!

Actually even if I downloaded it I am still considering buying their album because I just got 8 songs. I think it’s not complete. And it is a really great album from a really great band who loves taking risks…