Mistaken Identity

Don’t you dare point
Your pointer finger at me
Because the other four
Is pointed at you
I’m innocent
And quite decent

Can’t do those things
You’ve mention

I can’t do those things
You really don’t know me well
It’s a mistake you’ve done
You’re so stupid to push me
In things I don’t know about
I hate the feeling
That I’m being mistaken to be bad
When the truth is
I’m quite upright

But I am mad
I’ll blow your house down
Or let you wear a stupid crown
Or I’ll gonna make you a funny clown
Fix your world
Don’t mind me
Mind yourself
Because I don’t want you
To ruin my already
Fucked up life

“Sapat Na Ba Ang Sabihing Mahal Kita?”

Sapat na ba ang sabihing mahal kita?
Kung hindi mo naman maipakita
Sapat na ba ang sabihing mahal kita?
Kung lagi mo na lang akong iniiwan sinta

Ikaw ay palayo ng palayo
Samantalang ako’y palapit ng palapit sa’yo
Nagmamakaawa, nagdurusa
Hindi ko kayang mawala ka sinta

Dumidilim ang paligid
Tumatahimik ang daigdig
Nagtatanong sa sarili
Kung minahal mo nga ba ako sinta?

Sapat na ba ang sabihing mahal kita?
Kung nakita kitang may kasama ng iba
Sapat na ba ang sabihing mahal kita?
Kung alam kung ako’y niloloko mo sinta

Ako ngayo’y namulat
Ngayo’y sobrang nagdurusa
Ng malaman ko na
Hindi talaga sapat
Ang sabihin mong mahal kita

Revilvary...

Haha… I made my own word. I already have Isang Ugat Isang Dugo by Rivermaya but the other two, We stand Alone Together by Bamboo and Home by 6cyclemind are still not in my collection.
These albums have a common denominator, puro revivals. It’s just disappointing because these bands are really good in making original songs. In the case of Rivermaya, they said that they just want to give way to the songs that they’ve listened. And pay tribute to the great pinoy bands, they only have one original and it’s Isang Bandila. In the other hand, 6cyclemind covers songs that they love and parang mag slow naman ng konti like what they did to “Prinsesa” na may pagka bosa nova. But they wanted to tell us that they already prepared another all original album that will soon be release. So about Bamboo? Siguro ganun din….

Isaang Ugat, Isang Dugo,
I hope they will release agad another all original songs because that’s were they are good at. Narinig mo nab a yung “Inosenta Lang Ang Nagtataka?” Sumabog talaga dun si Rico. Parang if you’re not familiar to this band then you heard “You’ll be Safe Here” or “Balisong” hindi mo aakalain na sila yun. I hope they choose a song na medyo slow pero ok naman yung album siyempre Rivermaya pa rin yan.


We Stand Alone Together
I’m not a big fan of Bamboo. So I don’t know much about this album. All I know it’s full of covers. Pero astig yung version nila ng “Tatsulok” kasi parang sila pa rin. I mean, parang they could write that kind of song.

Home
Medyo puro slow songs yung cover nila, or ginawa nilang slow like “Prinsesa”. Ang alam ko “Could You be My Number 2” , “Home”, “Upside down” yan yung mga slow songs na kinover nila. Gusto kong marinig yang mga version nay an.

Like what I’ve said earlier these bands are great making original songs kaya sana they would noit stick sa pag re-revive. Pero it’s a good thing din like me, I don’t know some songs na ni revive nila, so napapakilala nila in today’s generation. Ok na din

Buddha's Pest

Album Title: Buddha’s Pest
Content: 12 tracks
Album Artist: The Mongols
Label: VIVA Records
Review:
Before anything else The Mongols is compose of Ely Buendia on vocals and guitars, Jerome Velasco on bass, Yan Yuzon on guitars and Bogs Jugo on drums. It’s the band after Ely broke up with eraserheads. Their sound is more rock na slow and dark unlike the new pupil. They also have deep songs. I mean hindi simple yung tipong madaling maintindihan. Pero for me ok naman. I like this album. Like how I liked Pupil’s “Beautiful Machines”.

1) Keeper- at first my noise. Medyo matagal yung noise. Ely’s style on this song is parang tumutula lang siya.
2) Bulakbol- parang if you listen to the title Bulakbol very simple yung meaning. It means you love to go to other places. But in this song medyo deep yung meaning. Yes, lumalabas ditto yung meaning ng bulakbol pero may things na di ko maintindihan like “Ako’y tumatalon(ako’y sinasabon) At siya’y tumutula/bumubula, Lumilindol Naghahabol, Hanggang kailan ka Bang bulakbol?”.
3) Bakit Nga Ba?- medyo parang tunog eraserheads lang pero mas rock. Ngayon medyo simple at madaling maintindahan. Just asking some questions.
4) Pony- Yan is the vocals here. Medyo slow rock to. I like this song. It’s funny. I don’t know if they endorsing pony at that time. Pero I know now they endorsing it.
5) Teka Muna- Another tagalog song. It’s about telling you to wait.
6) Candyflip- matagal yung intro. Medyo maingay. Ditto lumabas yung parang mid point ng sound nila. Maingay na rock na deep.
7) Heroine- Si Yan ulit ang vocals. Nakakashock lang kasi may line doon na “I gonna fuck you till tomorrow”. Dahil I first know their music as pupil. At the end parang may dialogue. I think its Dianne Ventura. Pinaka short na song.
8) Wigout- kinda slow again. I like this song.
9) It’s over- Yan yuzon is on vocals again. Parang mas maganda yung songs niya ditto than sa pupil album.
10) Irish Spring- dib a it’s a brand of a soap? I also love this song
11) Odd Even- Another Tagalog na medyo slow na song. So parang eheads na naman. Pero hindi
12) Your Bushido- Medyo slow ulit. Longest song sa album. It’s about a girl that she’s really crazy about.
Overall: Astig naman ito. Ayun nga lang parang may hang over pa si Ely sa Eraserheads. Yung ibang tagalog songs parang eheads lang. pero parang iba pa rin. Kasi rock na rock nga yung feel ng album nila. So I’ll give 4 rock stars!!

The Break-up

It’s kinda clear to me what the reason behind the Eraserheads break-up is. I don’t need to elaborate more about this just read this. Para malaman ang totoo according to Ely and Dianne Ventura.

ELY’ S SIDE OF THINGS: Eheads was an experiment gone bad. It had escaped from the lab and wreaked havoc upon its creators and the unsuspecting townspeople. With this interview, Diane and i hope to capture that monster and put it in a cage where it belongs, so that anyone with a curiosity can study it, dissect it or just fed it with peanuts if they wanted. Me, I’ve already made my mind up about the band. It was good while it lasted, but now all I can remember vividly is the ugly business that led to the breakup. I just wish those people hadn’t involved Diane and our family. It was really uncalled for. All of you people be warned: if you ever say something bad about Diane again there will be bloodletting. We don’t want to blow it out of proportion, but sometimes you have to fight fire with fire. Still, I don’t want to be the one to talk about it because you would have to put me in a straitjacket and censor every word that would come out of my mouth. Diane is a better candidate for telling the story because aside from being there when it happened, she still has the mind to be objective and the bottom line is I trust her. Her opinion is what I value most. This may spark more mudslinging and controversy or it may finally put everything to rest. Either way were glad its finally on print -Ely Buendia, by email


DIANE:K First let me recount the events of that fateful day when Ely finally decided to quit. It was a Sunday, and we were on our way to my family’s house in B.F. Paranaque when all of a sudden we got a call from roadie Sammy saying that we were already late for a gig. Now the S.O.P. was gigs are supposed to be confirmed at least a day before thru text or handouts. Since neither of this happened, for the record, we were absolutely oblivious of the mall show that day! I mean kaya nga andyan ang roadie to make sure that the artist is well informed of all the details of the show. That was his job. What we resented the most was that kami yung pinamukha niyang unprofessional. Sammy claims that he told us about the gig the other night during a bar show. If he did clearly tell us about the mall show one of us would definitely have remembered. Bottom line is even if he did verbally mention the gig to us still do not follow S.O.P. He could texted us like he always did before. Syempre nasanay na kami sa ganoong systema kahit sa former managers. So who’s s unprofessional now? The mall show pushed through, we had to miss our family gathering. But everybody was already giving Ely the cold shoulder, as if sinadya niyang ma-late. Never mind that kami ang na-hassle because of Sammys #!@up. In their eyes, Ely is being a rockstar. The next day Ely decided to take up what he thought was unprofessionalism on the management’s part with the management himself, Butch Dans. It turned out that the verdict was already out. Butch didnt even investigate further, he just took his employees word for it. His exact words to Ely were, its his words against yours’; Apparently Sammy lost no time defending himself. Siniraan niya agad si Ely and would you believe pati ako dinamay! Insinuating that we were probably too high on drugs that night at that bar to remember anything. Diyos ko naman may pamilya na kami and nag-aaral pa ako that time. We were raising a kid! Do you think pagaaksayahan namin ng panahon ang drugs? I had cancer, bawal nga sakin kahit yosi o alcohol magda-drugs pa ba ako? Syempre gusto ko pa makita lumaki anak ko no! Pero according to Butch, the accusation that we were on shabu came from Mica (then girlfriend, I mean ONE of the girlfriends, of Marcus). First of all I havent even tried the stuff! One more thing, she also claimed na she told me about the mall show kaya imposible daw na hindi namin alam unang-una wala syang sinabi. Di ko naman siya kinakausap. Ayoko na sanang mag namedrop especially now that tapos na ang lahat pero #!& ina, grabe yung ginawa nya di man lang niya naisip na we have a name, privacy and family to protect. Parang sya yung may sayad. To this day ipaglalaban ko ang innocence ko kahit ipa-drug test nyo pa ko just so you know whos really telling the truth. God! That girl is such a hypocrite, sana tignan-tignan niya nga yung kasama nya para malaman kung sino talaga ang junkie! Ely is even more pissed off at her kasi super imbento at pakialamera at pati ako dinamay. I really dont like trashtalking other people. But this time below the belt na kasi what she did. Im just defending myself and my family. Sa totoo lang we could sue them for slander sa ginawa nilang yan. Why Thirdline (management firm who handles Eraserheads during that time) would even listen to just anybody is beyond us. Anyway back to the story what struck us th most was the other three (Marcus, Raimund, Buddy) supposedly Ely’s friends corroborated Sammy’s incredulous and ludicrous story without even talking to Ely first. Ok let me put in this way. Kunwari for the sake of argument kung mali man si Ely, hindi ba usually kahit mali yung kaibigan the least true friend can do is to give his/her friend the benifit of the doubt? Pero in this case totally walang nangyaring ganun. Ang masakit pa lalo e na wala naman talagang kasalanan si Ely pero they still sided with the management. Nasaan yung camaraderie? Ten years down the drain. Where was the friendship? Then is dawned to us that wala na talaga. Ely was so disgusted by it that he decided to give the other three the dose of their own medicine. After all nabastos kami by their betrayal, Ely quit the band just thru text. There was no sense in staying and continuing a band where members stab each other in the back. It was never like a competition for Ely bec. he wanted it to work out. His priority was the whole band not himself. You dont form a band and then go creating rivalries. Ely"s not like that. After all he chose Raimund to be with the band and lingid sa kaalaman ng marami Raimund actually almost got kicked out of the group before they even signed up with BMG records dahil nga he was displaying a selfish attitude. Strangely everybody did sense early on that Raimund treating Ely more like a rival than a bandmate. Even when performing Raimund always seemed to be either trying to show off or upstage Ely, to detriment of the performance. Ely got turned off by that who wouldnt? Well di ko talaga nakita or kilala ang Eheads until nakilala ko si Ely, noon ko na lang sila napanood talaga at narinig. Kahit di ako fan ng bands at wala ako masyado background sa scene, napuna ko pa rin na parang wala talaga silang chemistry on stage unlike the Mongols parang sa tingin ko mas nag ja-jive talaga personality and musisc-wise. Tsaka super humble ng members, there really just genuinely happy to be in the band, anyways going back to topic, dahil may pinagsamahan na sila ni Raimund, Ely chose to work it out and still kept him in the band. Bakit pa nagbanda si Ely eh di sana nagsolo na lang siya. He never considered anybody in the band rival. Ely’s a team player. Ang issue lang naman ni Ely kay Raimund was the manner in which he achieved his personal agendas. Hindi naman na-badtrip si Ely sa pagbuo ni Raimund ng bagong banda. He was actually happy for his bandmates newfound success. Kaso never kasi naging open si Raimund about it, not that Ely or the band wanted Raimund to ask permission. He could do anything he wanted. Sana lang nagsabi or nagkwento man lang, hindi yung biglang tahimik tapos magugulat na lang kami ng magsusumbong yung staff (ng eheads office) na Raimund, with Karen(ex manager ng Eheads) would use the Eheads office to book his bands gigs. Nakarating nga sa amin through concerned employee na may times na sinusulot nila what were supposed to be gigs for Eheads. Bad trip naman yun. Tapos may mga shows pa Eheads na bigla na lang ika-cut ni Raimund short para makahabol sa Sandwich gigs. Wala lang finesse. Again we dont have a problem with Raimund putting up another band sana lang he was more open and considerate, less sleazy. That s it lang. Other than that ok naman masaya pa nga kami for him.

V Pulp: What do you hope will happen after this comes out?

Diane: the truth is we came out to end this at hindi para mag-umpisa ng away. The whole point of this interview was for us to defend ourselves from all the vicious attacks we"ve received following the Eheads breakup and finally shed light on what really happened. Its not a crime to fight back especially when your re#"&@tion is at stake. Kung kami papipiliin we should still not choose to do this pero they left us with no choice. This is a last ditch attempt to end this controversy and feud. We are ready to make peace anytime basta huwag lang talagang mamersonal. Sana talaga matapos na ito nakakasawa na.

To Thirdline(management firm who handles eraserheads prev) just please stop attacking our personal lives. Its unfair. To ex-bandmates: we wish youd stop being resentful and bitter towards Ely. He has nothing against you. Wag niyo kalimutan yung pinagsamahan niyo, wag na din sana manumbat, after all its common knowledge that it could been another John, Mike, Edward or any other man in your places then, and it would have still been the Eraserheads. You are all talented and Ely believed in all of you, that’s why he wanted to share everything with you. Hindi nyo kami kailangan tapakan to prove your worth. There are better ways to achieve our goals in life especially with talent like yours.

To the die hard Eheads fans: its not the end of the world, they’re all still alive and you still have CDs to listen to. Matanda na yung apat pagbigyan niyo na silang gawin ang gusto nilang gawin. If you really love them support their new endeavors. They would appreciate that. You dont need to take any sides. This about great music. Dont be too attached to the image (it’s just an illusion) they’re just people like you and everybody else trying to earn a living. Just enjoy the music, whoever it may come from, Sandwich man or Cambio, the Mongols(Pupil) or kahit sino magaling sila lahat, support filipino music, And sa mga tao na sumusuporta pa rin sa lahat at walang kinikilingan, mabuhay kayo! Thank God na madami paring mga tao na may breeding at matatalino who understand that good music trancends everything including musicians themeselves. Habang may natitirang mga ganito may pag-asa pa ang industry. You Rock! thanks again for replying!!

Tropical Depression

Re-post ko lang muna to…

Under crisis
I blame it on the world
So sad and so absurd
It’s my pride that fuels my lies
I have no where else to turn
Drop ashes from the burns
Comprised my life
Breaking down the walls
That’s dividing and keeping me from you
Racing out…
Screaming out your frustrations
Reaching out for a savior
I need a savior now
Is heaven around?
I’m calling out
I’m craving now
For a new dawn to descend my soul
I’m racing now
Chasing after my salvation
I’m tired of falling down

Hay… I’m quite depress ata… or just sad… well, I dropped my accounting subject… why? If I continue this subject I might get F… hay… I’m not used to have low grades… hindi ko pa pinapaalam sa parents ko… at ayaw ko ng paalam noh… I’m thinking to shift to other course because at the first place I really don’t like this course and I think its really not for me… di ko alam na business pala tong pinapasok ko… I really like com sci or any computer course but walang business please…

Another sad thing is my grandfather is in a great danger… he has a 50-50 situation… nakaka sad talaga…

I’m in my 1st year in college and I think I’m entering in to the real world. Going through real problems, real people, real life situations, eto yung real world… nung high school ako, sure, merong mga problems na dumadating but hindi ganito… or kunng ganito nga I think I’m still too young to understand it…

I’m a type of person na when sad or have problems mas gusto kong i-keep sa sarili ko… kaya ata 60% male yung brain ko ayon dun sa sinagutan kong problem… ayaw kong sabihin…

Why I'm Craving For A Reunion

March 8
I just got myself a copy of the book “Tikaman Ang Langit” an anthology about Eraserheads. I can relate to some stories. Like some authors weren’t instant e-head fan. I mean, yes, they know eraserheads, they know their songs but they became a fan after a number of hits. In my case I became a fan when they disbanded. I’m too just too young back then.

When the Eraserheads release their debut album, ultraelectromagneticpop and gave string of hits, I think it’s in the year 1993, so I’m just 3 years old. After 9 years, in the year 2002 they broke up. And still I’m not yet a fan. I needed 3 more years to love them whole heartedly. That’s why I’m craving for a reunion. I never saw them perform live as a group. Yes, I saw Ely with his band pupil Performs “Pare ko”, Raimund and Sandwich with “Fruitcake”, “Alapaap” and Marcus sang his own version “Huwag mo nang itanong”. But nothing beats when Ely, Buddy, Marcus and Raimund perform together as one, and they are called ERASERHEADS.

Last Wednesday, I went to the book launch of “Tikman Ang Langit”. I saw Buddy, Marcus and Raimund. But where’s Ely? Ely is always “pasaway”. He is always the lacking member of eraeserheads in some events like in the launch of ultraelectromagneticjam and just recently in the book launch. I heard somebody saying “Si Ely na lang ang kulang dito reunion na sana”.

Magka reunion man o wala, I will respect their decisions. Pero kawawa naman ako, siguro for now, I’ll be contented in listening their songs, watching their classic videos, and dreaming about the reunion.

Tang Ina Andaming Nagugutom Fashionista Ka pA rIN

I don’t make it up; it’s a title from the indie artist Radio Active Sago Project’s 3rd album. I saw that article from the lifestyle section of a newspaper. Radio Active Sago Project is known for their originality, experimental, bold, ballsy and blessed with a sick, twisted sense of Pinoy Humor that’s not common in a ordinary band. Well, for me I don’t like their style because Lourd De Veyra is not singing para bang tumutula. Pero I’m not against sa kanila. It’s just I’m not the type of person that will buy their albums. Pero I like the fact that they are the band that can talk about life and political and other issues that seldom band can offer.

Then this girl caught my attention. She is the pawnshop heiress, Tara Tambunting. She is also 17 year old like me. It is basically about her, the things that she can buy and her shopping habits etc. She has a collection of bags. But of course it’s not just ordinary bag. She has branded bags and not the hearstrings, cosé, type of bags like what I have. sa kanya, Louis Vuitton,(hehe I have a hard time to spell that because I don’t own from that brand), Dior, Ferragamo and other branded and expensive things. I don’t know why I’m connecting these two articles. What do you think?

Then I saw this on T.V. about the issue of spending more than 200 Million in lamp post in Cebu (I think) because of the ASEAN Summit. Of course pakitang tao tayo sa mga ASEAN leaders. But I don’t know if they appreciate that damn lamp post. Because of that, napaisip ko na mayaman naman talaga tayo. We just don’t know how to use it properly and add the corrupt people living here in the Philippines. Yeah, of course lamp post is needed lalo na pag gabi. But we don’t need that expensive lamp post. What if mga 1 million lang ang gamitin dun then the rest of the money i-save for the fund for the people. Siguro hindi talaga 200 million ang nagastos. If that’s the case mas mabuti pang 200 million nga yung gastos nila kesa napunta lang sa mga kurakot.

Another is about the expensive city halls. Fuck!!! Ang laki ng nagastos nila. Umaabot ng mga 100-200 million. Para lang sa city hall. Sana they think of the poor people first bago ang luho nila.

Now I’m beginning to learn what’s the really problem… and I think Radio Active Sago Project has a great album title. And for Tara Tambunting, I hope she can get that album.

What I’m loving now….

March 9

These are songs that I’m listening and can play it for thousand times.

1) All out of love- it’s an old song from air supply. Time look back with some old but great songs.
2) Sway- it is by Bic Runga. It really relaxes me. I thought M.Y.M.P’s version is better when I first heard it pero nagkamali ako. Original is still the best.
3) One look- I first heard it on Campus radio. It’s one of the favorites of ex- dj Sophie. Ganda sobra. Very different from kjwan’s other songs like daliri and pintura. Pang relax din.
4) Masaya- old song from bamboo. Medyo these days I like slow/old songs.
5) Sundo- it’s from Imago. Buti naman they are back in releasing good and senti songs. I think imago should release more songs like “sundo” and “akap” and stop muna sa mga “Tara Let’s”, “Anino” and other upbeat songs.
6) Cruzin’- weeh… matagal ko ng gusto to. Even before pa na di pa masyadong nakikinig sa music.

Shows I love watching

1) Survivor Exile Islands- luma na din. Kaso di ko kasi napanood eh. Buti I got the chance to see this survivor edition.
2) Amazing Race All Stars- I’m not a fan of this show, pero I watched the edition were rob and amber were the contestants. They are from survivor kasi. Now they are back and all stars kasi kaya I need to watch it.
3) Pinoy Big Brother- wehehe… I love watching reality shows eh…
4) MTV’s Room Raiders- tama ba? Basta yung susugurin yung room mo.
5) The Simpsons- it’s a very funny show.

Things that I’ve done or accomplish last week

1) I went to the “Tikman Ang Langit” book launch. I’m so happy to see familiar faces.
2) 3rd place in the dance- weeeh!! Our section won 3rd place even many things happened.
3) Party!!- nakipag sayawan!! I’m really in my college life
4) Eating vegetables during Friday- I did it…
5) Submitting papers- I did it? hehe sort of…