Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Vodka

Whatever they sayI know the truth will prevail
Whatever they do
You know I'll be there for you
When they are telling you are a queerJust drink a bottle of beer
Sleep beside me
You'll be safe here
The warmth of my bodyWill give you comfort
The downpour of the rain
Will ease the pain
Here is a bottle of vodkaWhen you drink it
You will be like Willy Wonka
Sometimes being crazy is like tasting nirvana

It feels like school all over again...

"The dog days are over..."

I've seen a couple of congress hearings about the R.H. Bill. I will not talk about that controversial bill because... I don't want to... and my opinion doesn't matter... hahaha

The man from Sarangani was there. As I watched him I remember myself. I once like him while delivering his speech. He is nervous, he stuttered a lot, just reading his "kodigo" instead of speaking and looking at the audience.... and at some point I don't know if he understood his co-debater....

His co-debater naman he reminds me of a smart classmate... yung classmate na parang he knows everything. yung palaging nag re-recite, palaging nagtatanong sa teacher...

And at some point the Chairman of the house kept on reminding the people to be quiet or don't clap while the people is still talking/debating... or listen to the debaters so they will not repeat the questions they will ask....

Para naman sila yung class president or in college the class representative....

ganun din pala sa Congress.... parang school lang... If you are sad and it seems there is nothing to watch on t.v. watch the hearings... kahit anong hearing senate/congress... they are the best...

it's my favorite comedy show next to Modern Family, Big Bang Theory and How I met your mother?

Procrastinator's Dreams

To be famous
To have power
To earn
Without anything to learn
To fly
To live
To give
But at the end of the day is only to receive
To be loved
To succeed
To be rich
Everything is within his reach

Monday, May 23, 2011

Sunburn

"I just want to be at the beach... SUNBURN"- Sandwich

Sunburn
Mixed media on paper
Manila, May 2011

Huling Elbimbo


"Lahat ng pangarap ko'y biglang natunaw.... Sa panaginip na lang pala kita maisasayaw" My very own art work.
Huling Elbimbo
Mixed media (naks) on paper
Manila, April 2011

Saturday, May 14, 2011

Joke Time 2

"sampal ng kananete napa-este ang peste nagkandaleche-leche"-- eraserheads

I'm teasing my brother because he is not yet circumcised. I made a knock knock joke for him.

Me: Knock knock
bro: Who's there?
Me: Tuli
bro: (hesitant) tuli who?
Me: It's TULI to apologize it's Tuli...

Another one...

We were watching 127 hours in my laptop. My mom asked what canyon is that.
Bro: Grand canyon?
Me: Hindi ata...
Bro: May canyon ba sa pilipinas?
Me: Oo...
Bro: Saan?
Me: Sa corregidor...
Mom, bros: (Tawanan)

Fall

Pictures from down Under





Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Worst Show- clue: not Wowowee

"Sali na, dalhin na ang barkada umuulan dito ng pera sali na, pati ang pamilya sa happy-sappy magic plastic ihaw-ihaw all-time noontime show" - Itchyworms

excerpt from my May 2010 post:

I brought a pen that is nagtatae. I don't know if we Filipinos, are the only one who say that when our pen's ink is leaking. We are really creative. Speaking of creative here in Australia they have this show called "Hey, hey it's Saturday". Me and my brother always laugh when we see it in commercial. It airs every Wednesday. I thought Wowowee is the worst show but nothing compares to this show. It's a talent show but the contestants don't have any talent... that's the case... plus they have this stupid duck...



Late post- Disbanded Bands


"Oh Kay tagal din kitang minahal..."- Sugarfree
Sugarfree- Had their final concert last March 1, 2011 at Eastwood. I like their music. Ebe's voice is so soothing. It's a "pang patulog" kind of voice. Sugarfree is an emo band without the eye liner and emo fashion... haha... That's what I like about them. My favorite Sugarfree songs are "Burnout" and "Mornings and Airports". It's so sad that they are gone now, but Ebe is now going solo and a new album on the way.


Bamboo- Bamboo's voice is just soothing too. They have some patriotic song such as Noypi. My favorite song from the band is the lesser known songs such as "These Days"and "Muli".





I hope this 2 bands will be willing to do a reunion concert... after 7 years? parang heads lang... habang tumatagal tumataas ang presyo... hehe

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Rockabye Baby- Rock Versions

"Shakedown 1979 Cool kids never have the time On a live wire right up off the street You and I should meet Junebug skipping like a stone With the headlights pointed at the dawn We were sure we'd never see an end to it all" -Smashing Pumpkins



I really love this rockabye versions of rock songs. Pang patulog ko ito.While listening, I imagine myself carrying my future baby/ies... hahaha... this is a song that makes me want to have children right now... tapos ihahagis ko na sila pag umiyak na... hahaha

Monday, May 09, 2011

Sunday, May 08, 2011

The Gentleman from Saranggani

"Pilipino, Pilipino, Pilipino ang lahi ko..."-Pacman



Pacman, Jinkee and Congratulations Filipinos are trending because of the man... Manny Pacquiao... "Galing mo talaga manny" sabi nga sa commercial

Tikman

"Halika tikman ang langit"- Eraserheads




masarap pakinggan habang umuulan...

Saturday, May 07, 2011

A Mother's Cry


I want to hear you cry
It means you are by my side

Not seeing you
Doesn’t mean I’m not loving you

In your first word
I’m not with you

In your first step
I wished I was the one guiding you

In your first smile
I wished I was the one you are smiling to

This is a mother’s cry
Wishing I can hold you tight

This is a mother’s cry
Wishing I can sing you a lullaby

Originally titled as father's cry but since it's mother's day on Sunday I changed father to mother. next time if it's father's day I will repost this and post the original version... haha

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY

Friday, May 06, 2011

A make believe.


I wonder what the world looks like
When you and me will share it together
You're the star and I'm you're lover
Our children playing with the clover
As the water pours down
We will join the whales as they swim by
We will unearth sharks and sting rays
We will hug turtles at the bay
At night we will be knights
Dragonflies will make it bright
We will fight evil monsters
That made our children falter
In the palace I'm the Queen
Happiness is what we bring
We give happy ending to every human being
No one is fear of living
In our castle you're the King
We fly using angel's wings
We give love to everything
This is a world where never ending make believe exist
Tomorrow in my sleep I will wake up in my dreams

Friday, April 29, 2011

Top 10 Myths about Introverts


Myth #1 – Introverts don’t like to talk.
This is not true. Introverts just don’t talk unless they have something to say. They hate small talk. Get an introvert talking about something they are interested in, and they won’t shut up for days.
Myth #2 – Introverts are shy.
Shyness has nothing to do with being an Introvert. Introverts are not necessarily afraid of people. What they need is a reason to interact. They don’t interact for the sake of interacting. If you want to talk to an Introvert, just start talking. Don’t worry about being polite.
Myth #3 – Introverts are rude.
Introverts often don’t see a reason for beating around the bush with social pleasantries. They want everyone to just be real and honest. Unfortunately, this is not acceptable in most settings, so Introverts can feel a lot of pressure to fit in, which they find exhausting.
Myth #4 – Introverts don’t like people.
On the contrary, Introverts intensely value the few friends they have. They can count their close friends on one hand. If you are lucky enough for an introvert to consider you a friend, you probably have a loyal ally for life. Once you have earned their respect as being a person of substance, you’re in.
Myth #5 – Introverts don’t like to go out in public.
Nonsense. Introverts just don’t like to go out in public FOR AS LONG. They also like to avoid the complications that are involved in public activities. They take in data and experiences very quickly, and as a result, don’t need to be there for long to “get it.” They’re ready to go home, recharge, and process it all. In fact, recharging is absolutely crucial for Introverts.
Myth #6 – Introverts always want to be alone.
Introverts are perfectly comfortable with their own thoughts. They think a lot. They daydream. They like to have problems to work on, puzzles to solve. But they can also get incredibly lonely if they don’t have anyone to share their discoveries with.They crave an authentic and sincere connection with ONE PERSON at a time.
Myth #7 – Introverts are weird.
Introverts are often individualists. They don’t follow the crowd. They’d prefer to be valued for their novel ways of living. They think for themselves and because of that, they often challenge the norm. They don’t make most decisions based on what is popular or trendy.
Myth #8 – Introverts are aloof nerds.
Introverts are people who primarily look inward, paying close attention to their thoughts and emotions. It’s not that they are incapable of paying attention to what is going on around them, it’s just that their inner world is much more stimulating and rewarding to them.
Myth #9 – Introverts don’t know how to relax and have fun.
Introverts typically relax at home or in nature, not in busy public places. Introverts are not thrill seekers and adrenaline junkies. If there is too much talking and noise going on, they shut down. Their brains are too sensitive to the neurotransmitter called Dopamine. Introverts and Extroverts have different dominant neuro-pathways. Just look it up.

Myth #10 – Introverts can fix themselves and become Extroverts.
Introverts cannot “fix themselves” and deserve respect for their natural temperament and contributions to the human race. In fact, one study (Silverman, 1986) showed that the percentage of Introverts increases with IQ.
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Will POST again


Will be active with this blog... hopefully

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Background made by me




I made this one!! hehehe

I Rave








Worthless days
Restless nights
Pathetic life
Lonesome fight
Airplane is landing
Picture fading
Job hunting
Hear me raving
Confidence sinking
Wind is whispering
Leave everything
Come and be my queen

Lost

I don't know if it's here
All I know is I'm real
I don't know if I will find you
All I know is that I lost you

I looked under my bed
"Oh my God!" that's what I said
I looked all around
I fell on the ground

Oh I will miss you
Oh why did I ever let you go

I don't know if I will replace you
All I know is that I lost you
I don't know if I can find you
All I know is that I lost you
All I know is that I lost you

Bum

Ako ay naghihintay
na may mangyari sa buhay
Lahat ay inaabangan
Hindi na makadaan

Tumirik ng ilang buwan
Ang aking kasiyahan
Wala ng kabuluhan
Ang manatili pang nag aabang

Buhay ng iba ay inaasam
Dahil di hamak na kasiyahan ay nararamdaman
Lumalasap at natitikman ang kamunduhan

Ako ay nakapako sa apat na sulok
Walang magawa kundi tumiklop
Kalunkutan ay pa daan daan
Kasiyahan ba ay nandyan lang?

My Fave TV Shows right now...

Because I'm still unemployed I have a chance to watch t.v. shows unlike before. I recently discovered Two and A half Men and Big Bang Theory while I was at Australia. When I'm back I'm trying to find which stations have their shows. They are the best comedy shows ever!! My brother and I were talking about the comedy shows here in the Phil. He said that they should just copy 2 and half men. I realized how ugly our shows here.

I'm also wacthing and discovering Gossip Girl. I like it because although I am a new viewer i can still get the story of the show.
Now I have to watch the 3 seasons of that show.

Before, the only shows I'm watching are reality shows because these are the shows I can watch in the morning and afternoon. Good shows like what I mentioned a while ago are all in the night slot.

hanggang sa susunod na palabas....

Tuesday, October 05, 2010

Monday, July 12, 2010

Bummerrang!!!!!


WOW!!! I'm such a bummer... wala akon ginagawa dahil wala pa kong trabaho...

ewan ko ba tinatamad ako maghanap...
hayyyyyyyyyyyy..........

Monday, July 05, 2010

Balikbayan backs




I'm back to the land where i belong
I'm so glad that i like to sing a song
this is home...
it is the country where i'm born to live
but circumstances can't controll
sometimes i need to leave
i don't want to but it's an oppurtunity
oppurtunity that i can't find here in the country
while the president is new
the sky is now blue
my mind is clear
people do hope
we need to hold on the rope
faith is needed
in the land where poverty exceeded
let's change, let's ignite
althought we can't do it in a night
the fire is back
keep the flame alive
i'm so ecstatic i arrived
at the right time
at the riht moment

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Aussie Adventure


i'll be back in manila by saturday...


hope i'll have a safe trip with my brother...


it was a lotta fun...


hope to be back someday...


i want to work here eventually.... i will tell why later on.....



Saturday, June 12, 2010

Tuesday, June 08, 2010

Picture Picture


Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Dirty Finger


"Pwede bang itigil mo na ang pa ikot ng mundo"

I just voted yesterday. what a nice experience. i waited about hour and a half. if i know that pregnant women will be prioritized then i should at least try to be pregnant... hahaha... or i should be on the wheel chair or something. at least i know what to do next election.

By the way my dirty finger hurts (my finger that has indelible ink). Pauso kasi nanay ko. she was washing our clothes then she dipped her finger with clorox. then voila! the ink was gone. then i tried it also i dipped my finger with clorox. it's not completely gone. and it hurts right now. my mother said na "luto" yun finger ko. wahaha.


The moral of the story... just be proud with your dirty finger and show it. only with people that has enough patience has that ink....

Wishing Spree


I
If I could have you little longer
I would embrace you forever
If I could have you all days of my life
I would be the luckiest person alive

II
If I could stay with you for so long
Nothing would go wrong
If I could only have one dream
It is you and me in every scene

III
If I could wish only one thing
It is you would give me a ring
If I could only fall for one guy
It is with you I'm willing to die

IV
If I would finish this line
I wanted that you would be mine
If I could only be the person you would love
I would thank the God above

V
Because you is all I ever wanted
But you've taken me for granted
I wanted to give you credit
For making me pathetic

VI
Even if my schedule is hectic
And you are quite athletic
I'm willing to stay with you forever
Until my life is over

Sunday, May 09, 2010

Election Virgin

"Ako ang simula ako ang simula..."

Tomorrow i will vote for the very first time. everything you will do for the first time is something special. you need to prepare and be ready for consequences or whatever the outcome.

i'm still thinking for who will i vote because it means he/she will be the leader for the whole 6 years... unless he/she wanted to stay longer. case in point: GMA... he/she will be an instrument to make this country be united and nicer to live in.

Saturday, May 08, 2010

Trip Music For The Week

Fun Song!!!

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Back 2 Me

"Pls. pls come back to me"

Everything is back to normal...

I am back doing what i am doing when i'm still young and have nothing to do with life.

I am a fresg graduate and unemployed so what are you expecting me to do?

hahaha

I am in front of the computer 24/7. the last time i did this is when i was doing my thesis so at some point i hated computers...

right now i'm in front of the computer and trying to catch up what is happening in the music and internet scene...

hahaha...

right now i'm doing what i love and that is watching eheads videos and articles about ely... feels like i'm 16 again... hahaha!!

Friday, April 09, 2010

Rotational Sweat

April 7 (Wednesday)
“Bad trip talaga tong MERALCO bakit brownout pa rin ditto?”

There were a rotational brownout for 2 consecutive days already and I’m not loving it. SUMMER=HOT=SWEAT. HATE IT! I’m going to Australia if my Australian visa will be approved the only advantage of that trip is that Australia might be colder than here. Oh an additional advantage is the “bragging rights” that I will have. Hahaha The rest is I don’t know…

So let’s just see.

Beautiful machines

April 6 (Tuesday)
“Your wires are all exposed like a beautiful machine”

I’m hurting a lot….

Well the charger of my laptop is broken. Its wire is all exposed and it became an ugly machine. I’m into searching for jobs and internet and computer is my number 1 companion. I already surpassed some challenges before like I don’t have an internet connection at home and I need to go to computer shops regularly to upload the sites I made. My pet peeve would be going to these cheap computer shops. I don’t like the ambiance and the people. I’m praying that my father could fix it. He did it once he may just fixed it again. My promise to myself is to buy a new laptop once I get a job then ITouch later.

I and my laptop have been through a lot. It is one of the key to achieve my beloved diploma. I’m finished right now so I think I need to replace you. You kinda suck right now.

If I am to name my laptop it would be Trojan. Don’t ask why. Haha

Monday, March 29, 2010

TraPo

I’m sick of traditional politicians Who are like magicians Who are using tricks to fool us To manipulate us They are giving deceitful messages Damn those commercials

Each Step

The steps I’m making today
Will bring my life miles away

As I start a new chapter
I’m whishing no debacles will takeover

The steps I’m making today
I’m flouting all the things they say

With my head up high
I will start a new life

Futile decisions, self-centered intensions
Today I’m going to be God’s laudable creation



Brainwashers

I can count with my fingers
The times I will have the power
This right that will hopefully change lives
The election will surely have a shock value
We are indeed thirsty for a rightful leader
As I shade the ballot
I’m having this authority
To let my voice be heard even for once in a while
I’m sick of traditional politicians
Who are like magicians
Who are using tricks to fool us
To manipulate us
They are giving deceitful messages
Damn those commercials
Some of them are far-fetched liars
They are trying to brainwash us
Using big, beautiful words
Fool is the one who fall from the crooked one

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Wasak Friends

Four years of our friendship is worth of lifetime memories. Each day is worth of idiotic chit chats, futile discussions, insane jokes and thousands of bulakbols will always be in my memory treasure chest. Who have thought that I would gain 2 friends in my school?

We became close because of being non-conformist/anti social/ happy-go-lucky girls. We are always against the norm. That’s why we are the only ones who understand each other. We almost risk our diploma in attempting to go against our influential and powerful chair.

With a bottle of beer we laughed, shouted at each other without any reason, made corny jokes, and sing songs …

We barely have an argument because I believed that we are “soul mates”. God made us so we could make each other happy. You made my college life a staggering experience.

We violated school rules. But who cares we graduated, we made it!

As I write this blog entry… tears wanted to roll down. But I know unlike the other friendships I made, this would go longer than ever and it maybe a cliché but we would be friends forever. I firmly believed on that.

Lisa, to my look a like, you are the sister I always wanted to have. Thank you for the various lessons and values you taught me… some are good but mostly are bad… hahaha but nonetheless it is worth remembering.

Anj, one of the most talented people I know I wanted you to know that I admire you and all things you could do. You don’t have second thoughts helping me in things I could not do. And most of all thank you for financially supporting me… hahaha

Marj, I just wish you will now do your thesis and have the diploma you dreamed of. Always remember that I am praying for you.

To my wasak friends goodbye for now and good luck for tomorrow.

Monday, March 08, 2010

Binder

The moon is the only one
That binds us together
The distance keeps me falling apart
This empty air
Strikes my falling hair
It hits me every time I hear your name
Breathing the same air
Seeing the same clouds
We are but a miles away
Life is enormously unfair

Tuesday, March 02, 2010

May nag tweet!!!


“Bokalista siya ng banda nila. May boses na mapapaibig ka. Halika tayo ay sumama. Nag gigitara kumakanta pa siya parang si Ely Buendia”


I am so happy that Ely added me on twitter. The feeling is the same when I passed my thesis defense. hahaha I first saw his twitter account last year pa November yata. His tweets are locked so I thought he will not add followers anymore. So last week I took a risk and added him. And he did!!! Haha!! Well I guess he adds everybody naman. I just thought he would be a snob. He has 20,000 ++ followers. I have a twitter but you will not get anything from me there. I made that just to follow Ely Buendia. Hahaha. Those little things make me happy.

Oh and by the way I saw this movie at Studio 23 called “Pare Ko”. I sort of watch it thinking that eraserheads will have a cameo like Rivermaya did. Rivermaya was there singing a song. Bamboo was there. He was the vocalist. Long hair pa siya noon. The movie is ugly. Well I didn’t watch it completely. I changed channels because it’s just ugly. Hahaha… I didn’t know na may “Pare Ko” na movie pala…

I am 20 years old right now and I started this blog when I was 16 years old a lot of things changed about me. One thing that didn’t changed is me liking Ely B.

Beauty Vice

“Banal na aso, santong kabayo natatawa ako HiHiHiHi”

My friends and I are planning to go to a comedy bar. We like to watch Vice Ganda perform. I watched some videos at YouTube and he is really funny. He is really good.

Vice caught my attention when he was a contestant on Game K N B? He was really witty on his answers.

Then at the first airing of Showtime, when he first used the “May Nag text” jokes I found it really hilarious. Ngayon kasi minsan corny. His jokes are funny but sometimes quite offensive. My friends once told me that I am like Vice because when I say offensive things and I say it like a joke they don’t find it insulting. That’s how Vice is, his jokes maybe distasteful but because he jokes to himself too, it didn’t seem too hurtful. He calls himself names like horse and etc. nanlalaet siya pero alam niya ding laitin sarili niya.

So this point of this post is … well I just like him… sana lalaki na lang siya… hahaha… I mean I like his humor… yung mga jokes minsan ay pag-iisipan mo talaga.

K Pop!


“I want nobody nobody but you (clap clap)”


I am appalled by the sudden popularity of the Korean music. I can’t understand why we Filipinos like those songs even we just now a certain phrase in the song.

I am not really against on those Korean pop stars. I am against to those Filipinos who choose or support more on them than on OPM artists. In my opinion OPM is dying and that is because we listen more to these Chinese looking guys called Super Junior and to Sandara’s group.

Ok. I must admit when I was about 8 or 9 years old I bought this album by Larusso. She is a . as a kid its ordinary to just listen or like what is popular. So maybe I will forgive if you are about that age but my god if you are above that… I don’t know…

We like a song because of its music and lyrics. So how would I like or support this Korean stars if I don’t understand a single word they say? What I’m trying to say it’s ok to listen and support these Korean pop stars but let us support first our very own artists. Try listening to Urbandub their songs are mostly about love, or if you are really into pop songs there is a group called… I forgot!! Haha. It’s a group of teens who wear candy colored clothes and sing pop novelty songs. They are VIVA artists.

As I write this rant I am watching MTV and they have this Asian Takeaway. I saw this video by Vaness Wu. Does his name ring a bell? He is a F4. I wonder why they don’t play OPM artists. We are better… far better than Vaness Wu or Sandara Park.

So I am blaming media for this whole crap…

Sunday, February 21, 2010

You Tube Killed MTV


WTF!! MTV officially signed off. 9 years in the boob tube is something else. I am a MTV watcher. It kills me to think that MTV is gone. I love music and it goes to show that I love watching videos. Maybe I am 1% of the population that doesn’t watch you tube in a regular basis. Well, before I rarely watch in the You Tube since I don’t have a nice Internet Access. But right now I do watch videos in the You Tube but only those I rarely see on TV.

When I am watching tv for let say 5 hours, 3 and a half hours goes to watching videos or anything on MTV.

Now maybe my brothers are really happy cause I’ll be watching tv for 2 hours only. Hahaha….


Sana ibalik ang MTV ARAW ARAW……………

P.S. THANKS MTV FOR BRINGING BACK ERASERHEADS…
Thank you also for accompanying me for 9 years when I’m alone in our home…
Tsk tsk……. I’ll miss you……….

Ooopss by the way... without MTV, OPM might be killed too... tsk tsk

Thursday, February 18, 2010

The moment of truth

February 11 (Thursday)

Ako nayon ay nasa alapaap na”

I don’t know how I will start my story… all I know is I am so thrilled, jubilant, overjoyed, and elated, proud…

I PASSED MY THESIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!PARTIDA!!!!!!!!!!
AHOO AHOO!!!!

I GOT 80%... and mataas na talaga to sa amin… coz I think the highest is 86 who is a candidate for suma or magna and ako na ang sumunod!!!

Dun sa defense na yon if I am not mistaken 2 lang ang pumasa…. So overall 4 na ata kaming pumasa sa thesis….

Medyo lumalaki ang ulo ko dahil AKO LANG ANG GUMAWA NG SYSTEM KO… GOD KNOWS THAT…Yung ibang bumagsak nag pagawa lang sila… I mean I’m the type of person who doesn’t have enough self esteem and confidence in things I do. Pero ngayon I’m so proud to myself. And I think I have the right to be proud and to be arrogant because almost all of my classmates have programmers in helping them and doing their thesis. Pero ako… AKO LANG TALAGA… pero when I looked back nung mga first month na ginagawa ko yung previous system ko… wala talaga akong magawa… walang codes na lumalabas sa utak ko…

I don’t really say this pero I REALLY FELT THE PRESENCE OF GOD DURING THIS TOUGH AND CRUCIAL TIMES IN MY LIFE….

A prayer surely will help you all the way.

Thank you God for all the blessings…

GRABEH…

Pero sana tulungan niya pa yung 3 friends ko kasi medyo may mga issues… SANA Sabay sabay kaming grumaduate…

Sunday, January 31, 2010

Fine Time

“I hope we could spend more time together
A few hours is better than never
If we could only make it longer
A whole day would be fine
A whole day would be fine
A whole day would be fine
A whole day would be fine ”



Mp3 music search


Jan.20 (Wednesday)

It’s my b-day!!! I am 20 years old!!!! Whoah!!! 2 dekada na ko sa mundo!!! ACHIEVEMENT!!!

Hindi ko makakalimutan itong day na to hindi dahil birthday ko, pero dahil defense day ko din. Hahaha!!!

After our class pumunta na kami agad sa comp. room. Andun siya. Kwentuhan na parang di ko defense… hahaha…kinakabahan na talaga ako ng sobra kasi half baked ang thesis ko… hahaha

Tapos na kwento ko na b-day ko at defense day pa!!! tapos sabi niya “talaga? B-day mo?” sabi ko “tao ako nag bi-birthday din no”. hahaha

Tapos sabi ni anj hulaan mo ilang taon na siya… I was expectin na mag e-exaggerate siya like he always do… tapos parang serious siya sabi niya “18?”… WAHAHAHAHAHA… haba ng hair ko… BENTE NA KO… hahaha


Then nag start nay un una mag de-defense… luckily huli ako… then after nung nagdefense… lunch na… tapos andun pa rin siya… tapos na jo-joke siya na libre kasi b-day ko nga… kung ano-ano sina suggest niya na mahal… then nauna na kaming umalis… kaso ang bigat na talaga ng bag ko/namin… kasi may dala kaming laptop… tapos sabi ko iwanan na natin sa comp.lab… kinausap pa naming yung nag-aasikaso dun na iiwan naming yung bag namin… tapos… aba nandun pa rin siya and he was joking again kung saan… di ako kumikibo… tapos… nauna na siya…

So ok…

Then nasa baba na kami may tumawag sa kanya… actually medyo malayo na talaa siya…tapos huminto siya at kinausap yung tumawag sa kanya… tamang tama nung palapit na kami bigla siyang sumabay samin… ininvite ang sarili… hahaa…

I thought at first nag jo-joke lang siya… pero nakalabas na kami sa gate at nag hahanap na ng kakainan nandun pa rin siya… wahaha… nung nasa tapat na kami ng Kenny Rogers sabi niya “Kenny!. Kenny! Kenny!” eh sawa pa naman ako sa chicken… at usapan talaga pizza… so we went to pizza hut… ang takaw niya sooobra… so ayun usap usap… tawanan too the max… dapat mga 1:00 nandun na ulit kami sa room kaso… an tagal ng mga inoorder naming… so mga 1:30 na halos… nagmamadali siya… kasi hahanapin daw siya ng dean dun sa defense naming… kami ok lang na tumagal kasi hindi pa naman naming defense at di kakadating lang ng pizza… sabi naming sa kanya..”mauna ka na!!!, kakain pa kami” ayaw niya naming umalis… pinipilit na naming siyang umalis… hahaha…

So ayun nagging boy namin siya… pinadala yung pizzahut at pepsi sa kanya…

Nung nasa skul na kami… nauna siya tapos kinuha ko na yung pepsi sa kanya… biglang lumapit yung mga estudyante niya… LOKO!!! MAY KLASE PALA SIYA… HAHAHA… Naghiintay sa kanya… sinungaling sabi niya hinhanap daw siya ng dean at ma pa-panel siya.. yun pala may klase siya… to think na pinauuna na naming siya ayaw niyan umalis gusto niya kasabay kami…. HAAAAYYYYY….


Ang kagandahan nun ay hindi ako natuloy mag defense… kasi anong oras na nun.. mga 5:00 pm…

Ang saya saya… nag mini stop na lang kami… LUTANG NA LUTANG KAMI.. lalo na AKO… hahaha… AYOS NA PA BENTE!!! HAHA

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Astig!!!




“Pop machine……”

22nd Awit Awards Winner for Album of the Year:
Eraserheads: The Reunion Concert by The Eraserheads (Sony Music)

I remember the first time I listened to this album at the listening area of Music One. I went there to buy a cd. (TRIVIA: Mas marami akong nabiling original na cd gamit ang pera ko kaysa sa mga damit.) I think I was planning to buy Nut House of Hilera or any Eraserheads album like Cutterpillow, Circus etc. I really don’t like to buy the reunion album because I was waiting for the DVD format. The album cost about 300 bucks and the DVD is about 400 so sabi ko mas maganda na yung DVD na lang yung bilhin ko at least mapapanood ko pa sila. So when I saw that album I tried to listen to it. Grabeh Gandang ganda talaga ako dun. Parang nasa concert talaga ako. Partida masama pakiramdam ni Ely diyan. His mother died two days before the concert. Actually physically you could see that he’s not that moving too much. Pero sa iba para sa akin hindi naapektuhan yung pagkanta niya.
So medyo ang tagal ko na ata dun and I think the saleslady was already looking at me because 5 minutes lang dapat makinig. Habang hawak ko yung album literal na hindi ko matanggal yung kamay ko sa album!! I think I look like stupid… pero wala naman sigurong nakakita… I was holding the album at pilit kong tinatanggal yung kamay ko sa c.d. pero ayaw maalis. Haahahaha… sa sobrang ganda napabili ako ng mp3. kasi ang sarap na dikit na dikit at dinig na dinig mo yung boses ni ely pati yung music. Mas gusto ko iyong pakinggan na naka earphone kaysa sa speakers.

So now I am still waiting for the Final set album… hope it will come out real sooooon habang may pera pa ko….. hahaha …..

Putek




“Sa itaas ng bubong nakita kong nagunaw ang mundo”

I was listening to NU early in the morning. I heard this song “Putek”. Putek is one of my favorite expressions. Nagsasabi ako ng “Putek” tuwing badtrip, o kaya may nahulog na bagay o kaya wala lang… so ng narinig ko yung song na un I was curious at nagging interested sa lyrics at sa song. At first I thought it is about being bad trip or something. Pero nung nasa chorus na may line na “Sa itaas ng bubong nakita kong nagunaw ang mundo”. And then I realize na tungkol pala ito sa Undoy at Pepeng typhoon. I got teary eyed nung narinig ko pa yung lines na buti sila buhay yung kapitbahay nila namatay…. I heard a lot of songs na pertaining to the past tragedies like yung “Bangon” ni Rico Blanco at yung sa isang kanta na sinulat ni Ogie Alcasid na kinanta ng various artist. Pero eto yung pinaka gusto ko… very youthful and clever yung lyrics. And I know na maramin nakakarelate. Then kung hindi ako nagkakamali si Raymund Marasigan ay nakatira sa Marikina. So I am assuming na from personal experience yung mga yun. So talagang astig….

I wonder kung saang album ito kasama… malamang hindi sa S Marks the spot… I am willing to buy… I love the song!! Putek!

The antagonist

“Maliliit na tao ay walang kalaban laban…”

Bakit may mga taong sadyang ginawa upang maging sagabal sa buhay ng tao? Bakit ba may mga kontrabida? Ano ba ang mapapala nila kung pinahihirapan ka? Bakit may taong natutuwa kapag naghihirap ka?

Hindi ko alam ang sagot… isa lang alam ko… bawat isa sa atin ay may kontrabidang kilala sa buhay nila… Minsan alam natin pero madalas hindi…marahil tayo din ay nagging kontrabaida sa ibang buhay ng tao…

Para sa akinng kontrabida sa buay: “Magtago ka na dambuhala kakampi naming si bathala kung ayaw mo na maniwala sa Diyos mapipinsala…Ahhhh… IKAW AY DAMBUHALA….”

Pero katulad ng isang bida sa isang palabas… sa akin ang huling halakhak… Wahahahaha!!! Akin parin ang happy ending… at ang they live happily ever after….

Monday, December 14, 2009

Blurred Light



I see you’re shattered face
Against the blurred light
I pound it with all my might
Tears rolled down as I cried last night
I surrendered you’re life
The lines are too low
I guess it you’re time, you have to go
Goodbye for now
Good luck for tomorrow

Sunday, December 06, 2009

Life is unfair


“I've got another confession to make I'm you're fool…” Foo Fighters

I’m halfway through my thesis. My system can now add, subtract, multiply etc. My only problem is my “boss”. She is absolutely unfair in all degree. My graduation depends entirely on her…. And that sucks…. Bigtime!!

She has a daughter and she is in the same department. Hindi lang yun teacher niya pa. Very unprofessional. I will not be surprise if her daughter will be in dean’s list, or suma,
Magna at any point. She has the power and confidence to do those things…

Pampalubag loob, just right now I got a message saying that we are accepted as web designers of our former school… I am now an official freelance web designer. I am really thankful to God in spite these entire unjust situation happening to me. I am now absolutely depending on Him.

Ngayon ko talaga na raramdaman ang presensiya ni God. I’m praying that He gave me knowledge and give me codes on the system I’m doing. And he really guides me and giving me answers. Really!!! He does give me codes and knowledge about my system. Kasi nung umpisa as in walang wala. Tapos as day progresses I’m constatntly changing my system kasi may naiisip akong bago at parang mali.

Thank you God… I really know that next year 7 PESOS NA PAMASAHE KO!!!

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Agawan Base

MY LSS FOR THE MONTH


Sakaling magbalik sa iyo
Pagkatapos magpalit-anyo ang paligid
Sa ’sang gilid may mga matang nagmamasid
At nag-aabang ng bagong laro

Refrain:
Alam ko
Pagbabayaran ko
Ang nakalimutang tagpo
Pagbabayaran ko

Chorus:
Sa tuwing umaalis at tuwing bumibitaw
Ang puso ko’y nagsusumigaw
Nagpapanggap mang nakangiti pa rin
Dala ang iyong habilin
Ang puso ko’y nagususmigaw
Nagususmigaw

Verse II:
Sakaling magpalit anyo ang ngayon
Magagamot ba ang pait ng kahapon
Pagsisisi’y nakaukit sa naguumpugang bato
Eto na kaya ang bagong laro

Repeat Refrain
Repeat Chorus

Sunday, October 25, 2009

A Movie Suggestion from a Movie Idiot

I have a bad habit of sleeping at movie theaters. I slept while watching Dark Night and the last one is Transformers II. But I really enjoyed the effects of the latter. It is also peculiar that I’m writing about movies right now.

I am a fan of comedy or romantic comedy type of films. The last movie I’ve seen is Hangover which is the no.1 rated R comedy film. I also like Adam Sandler movies. I have a dream movie. Gusto ko sana magkaroon ng movie ang Pugad Baboy. Yes, you read it right. The comic strip by Pol Medina Jr. I started reading it when I am starting to learn how to read. I think it is not that impossible since the characters of Pugad Baboy already appeared on a music video and commercial. They appeared on Sugarfree’s “Pugad” video. The video revolves about… what else but FOOD!!... They also appeared on a Quaker (tama ba?) commercial basta about food pa rin. The plot of the movie? Kahit ano… siguro pwede nilang gamitin yung mga nagawa na ni Pol like yung mga adventures sa ibang lugar like Palawan, Baguio… o kung saan man. Or kahit ano. Kahit mala the Simpsons the movie…


Since uso yung mga libro na gingawang movie sa Holywood bakit hindi natin yung try. Why not make Bob Ong’s books a movie? Mas maganda sana kung yung ABBNKKBSNPLAko! Since parang biography iyon ng buhay ng author. Gusto ko din sanang masapelikula ang Rant by Chuck Palanhuik. Ang astig ng storya at sa tingin ko mahirap yon gawing movie.

Siguro kulang na kulang ako sa panood ng movies para malaman kung ano maganda at hindi. Last month manood sana ako ng “Kinatay” kaso tapos na nung pumunta ako sa Rob Manila. Indie movies are overrated I think. And that’s good since Phil. Cinema needs movie that has more substance. The first and the last indie movie I’ve seen is “Kubrador” starring Gina Pareno. I am really impressed with the whole story plus characters. You will never see a movie like that in mainstream. I really like to watch lots of indie movies like “Ang Pagdadalaga…”, “Masahista”, “My Fake American Accent”, atbp.

Unofficial Dean’s List

October 23 (Friday)

“Ako ngayoy lumilipad at ngayon ay nasa langit na gusto mo bang sumama?”
Pampalubag loob. I got my grades. I have 3 A- and a B-. I computed it and I could be in the dean’s list. I’m freaking out!!! It’s every procrastinator’s dream. Actually I have another subject that I will take for 3 days next week. I don’t know if it’s only passed or failed. Its 2 units. So unofficially my QPA is 3.5… Hell yeah… but it’s not yet time to celebrate… my thesis still sucks.

Pero pampalubag loob talaga sooobra. Imagine being stressed out for the first time. Too stressed out. Then you will see your name in the hall because you are included to the list… the list that everybody wanted to be in…

Pero… hindi pa ko sure… that’s the sad part… I’m crossing my fingers…

Depress Mode

October 20 (Tuesday)
“Wag kang matakot na baka magkamali walang mapapala kung mag babakasakali… Lumilipas ang oras baka ka maiwan kung di mo susubukan…”

Ang adik talaga… The worst thing that could happen to a graduating college student doing his/her thesis happened to me. It’s October and our defense is on December and just now our prof rejected our thesis proposal. WTF! We kept on repeating on her what will our thesis would be, she says nothing. So now I’m so ngarag… who wouldn’t be? I need to catch up. As in!!!

First time ata mangyari sa akin ito… I’m so fucking stressed out!! That even in my dreams I’m dreaming about our thesis…. Thesis, thesis, thesis!!!!!

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Safeguard


My heart is unguarded
It is surrounded by mere solitude
A love I can share
The pain I already can’t bear
Standing still
I realized happiness is not there anymore
I’m trying to go back to the reasons
Why I always smile
But my heart is blocked
My mind sucked
I’m sick of waiting
Roving in the dark
Alone in the park
Oh, my poor heart
It is patiently waiting
For her security guard

Cold Turkey

Loving you is a vice
It’s like puffing a cigarette
I won’t stop till I can’t get enough
It keeps me stable
I feel comfortable
It destroys my system
But I feel very elated

Loving you is like drinking liquor
It keeps me sane
It brings my different side
And as if my world is about to collide
It keeps me high
It makes me alive

From now on
I will not stop smoking
Nor my drinking
But I will stop loving you
Its cold turkey
And it’s hurting me

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Stupid!!!

September 15 (Tuesday)
“At sa ibang boy ikaw nakipag laro ka ng apoy… ako ay nananaghoy”

My favorite line for today:

While we are at our 6:00-9:00pm class our computers encountered some problem so we decided to use a proxy site because some sites are blocked by the way, and we just opened our facebook. Well we can’t do much because we are not allowed to play or anything. it is still blocked. so we just viewing our friends and their pictures to kill time. lisa opened her facebook and we saw her friend with D. Then…

Me: Is this D the self proclaimed…
Lisa and Me: matalino?!!!
LOL…
hehehe…. I hate people who are self proclaimed matalino… wahaha…

oh by the way we had retreat for 3 days last week. It was fun because I was with Lis, Marj and Anj. we are sharing 2 rooms together. It was really, really fun. Well I’m still having LSS with the song Stupid Luv by Salbakuta. blame my friends for that. hahaha… Kumanta lang kami ng kumanta… hahaha… I will miss those days… hay… sobrang cheesy…

Thursday, October 08, 2009

Rant

Oct.2 (Friday)

Pahabol… another weird thing about me is I keep the receipts of the albums I buy. I want to see when, where I bought it. I am also planning to compute how much I used in buying all those shit. hehehe… but not now…. I’m broke (walang pasok for 1 week!!! fuck!) and computing it will make me feel worse.

Anyways, I want to write about lot of things, like the latest albums I am listening, the books I’m reading, the suspension of classes, my fucking thesis, my fucking prof , but let see where would I start…

so now I decided to write something about the albums I purchased. The recent album I bought is Sandwich’s Two in One Cd. well because these past few days I am listening at the radio I’m hearing this song called “Butterfly Carnival” and “Hair Pin”. I love those songs… then last Wednesday I went to Astovision just to look around I found out that Sandwich’s Two in One Cd is 185 bucks. Well, I bought Mojofly’s 2 in one cd last July 13, 2007?( I told you I keep receipts!) when I guess it is still new it costs 285 bucks. Imagine 2 cds for just 185!!! It is impossible!!! hehehe…

I’m not yet done listening to it. 34 tracks are so many for my 2 ears. I am playing it randomly. Then I was surprised to hear a track by Raymund Marasigan. it sounded like a song from e-heads. But nonetheless… it is all good…

I also bought Kjwan’s 13 Seconds to Love. I love “Life Line”, “13 Seconds To Love”, “Nasilayan”, “Meron Ba?”.

I also bought Pupil’s Wildlife Repackaged Album. Dito ako mag ra-rant. grabeh! ang nakalagay kasi may ni re-mastered yung mga songs. Yun pala “Animal Lover” lang. Tapos sabi kasi my stickers. yung kapatid ko kasi gusto ng mga stickers like yung sa 5 on the floor ng sandwich. Hehehe ang babaw…. pero… ayun…tapos puro music videos at demos…pang lubag loob… tapos meron mga pictures na pwede ko namang I cut, copy, paste. Naiinis ako kasi na loko ako!!! I have Wildlife album na kasi. Don’t get me wrong I love that album and it won as album of the year at Nu Rock awards last year. pero para lang talaga ako nagtapon ng pera. inis na inis ako… pero sinasabi ko na lang sa aking sarili kay Ely naman yun eh. hehehe… tapos wala pa naman akong ibang album na gusto…. pero… grrrrr…. Sana bumili na lang ako ng e-heads album, o kaya lobo…

Elib ako sa mga marketing strategy ng mga yan… Naloko ako… putek…I hate repackage albums… baket ba may ganon??? nakakaasar…

Ngayon ko lang naalala… Tapos nap ala yung anniversary ng blog ko… hahaha… di ko na naalala… last September pa… so happy 3rd birthday to you… dahil dyan I re-renovate ko ulit… so pls. bear with me… hahaha

Votetante na ko!!!




“Boto mo i-patrol mo”
Before I vote in 2010 presidential election I first voted for NU 107’s Rock awards. It’s like an annual thingy for me. I think it’s my 3rd time to vote…. Yeah men!!!

MY VOTE LIST:

1. Artist of the Year
Kjwan
2. Album of the Year
13 seconds to Love
3. Vocalist of the Year
Yan Yuzon
4. Guitarist of the Year
Marc Abaya
5. Bassist of the Year
Paul Yap
6. Drummer of the Year
Ean Mayor
7. Song of the Year
Salita
8. Best New Artist
Duster
9. Best Album Packaging
13 seconds to Love (Kjwan)
10. Best Music Video
Gusto ko lamang sa buhay (Itchyworms)
11. Producer of the Year
Bamboo
12. Smart / URock
College Band of the Year
Pards (UP Manila)

· I am into Kjwan right now… Obviously… and among the albums there konti lang ang meron ako so bias eh…

Friday, September 18, 2009

Wake me up when March ends…

“Today is gonna be the day that they're gonna throw it back to you. By now you should've somehow realized what you gotta do”

Ilang buwan na lang at ako ay mag-mamarcha na patungo sa ma damong quadrangle ng aming eskwelahan. Makakapunta na sa kauna-unahang pagkakataon ang aking tatay sa SSC. Makakasuot na ako ng itim na toga. matatangap ko na ang diplomang aking pinagarap simula ng ako ay uhugin pa. Ang diplomang din yon ang sumisimbola ng aking pag tanda at pag papaalam. Paalam na sa pag-aaral. Paalam na sa mga guro…. Paalam na sa mga kaibigan. Paalam na sa buhay skwela. Paalam na sa pagiging dependent. paalam na sa baon. Paalam na…

Ang diploma ay isang simbolo din ng pagpapasalamat. At salamat sa IYO…

Ang diploma din ang sumisimbolo ng bagong hamon sa aking buhay. Ano nga ba ang aking mararating? makakapunta kaya ako patungo sa aking mga pangarap? mahirap sagutin pero madaling mangarap…

Sana pag gising ko bukas March na…. para tapos na ang mga agam-agam, mga nakakatakot na imahinasyon at pag dududa… Sana bukas pag gising ko ay may hawak na akong diploma…

The 10 weird facts about me:


The 10 weird facts about me:

Actually I don’t know if these things are weird but for me I think it is.
1) I cried maybe twice while reading a book. The books that made me cry are Bob Ong’s Mac Arthur and Mitch Albom’s For One More Day
2) I have trichotillomania, an impulse disorder characterized by the repeated urge to pull out scalp hair.
3) I am OC at my music files in my computer. I have folders of different artist. I want it to be organized. As much as possible I want all the details to appear, for example at Media Player I want Album Covers are there, the released date, the composers etc.
4) I get sick or sometimes not feeling well when I am restoring my computer.
5) I read newspaper, magazine or book inside the bathroom.
6) I love watching videos at MYX and MTV even if the videos are just keeps on repeating.
7) I can live without a cellphone
8) I have weird imagination lalo na pag gabi.
9) I don’t want my collections to be seen. Well I have a virus collection…
10) I talk to myself… a lot…

Friday, August 28, 2009

Alapaap


Sunday, August 23, 2009

False Alarm

Aug.17 (Monday)

Hindi ko na alam ang nangyari. Tumingin ka ng malayo. Wag kang lumingon. Pumikit sumikip, mata’y bumaon. Ewan ko ba? Ayoko muna. Tumingin ka ng malayo
Unting unting lumalapit sa’yo. Paakyat ako ika’y pababa sigarilyong hawak ko. ewan ko ba? Ayoko na muna…. Tumingin ka ng malayo. Maduling ka sa irap ko sa’yo.
Hanggang dito na lang… ayoko na talaga sa’yo… ewan ko ba? Ano pa ba ang iyong naramdaman. Kalimutan mo na. pls ayaw ko ng malaman. Kalimitan mo na ako… Kalimutan mo na ako… Kalimutan mo na ako… Kalimutan mo na ako… Kalimutan mo na… Nakalimutan ko na… Kalimutan mo na… Nakalimutan ko na na minahal kita…

Sunday, August 09, 2009

Mariah Monkey

“ABS-CBN o GMA7, ABS-CBN o GMA7… Original o Pirated”

The opening line is “Bombardment” by Dong Abay.

I heard in the news about the gaya-gaya issue of Freddie Aguilar towards Charice Pempenco, Arnel Pineda and Gary V. He said something like why Charice and Arnel didn’t sing some Filipino songs when they are invited in some shows or have gigs on a foreign land.

A while ago when I was playing with the remote control I saw Sandara Park. She is now at her own land, Korea and she has a girl group called 21. I saw their music video at Myx. Anyways, the chismis show has this video showing her singing her hit song “In or Out”. It is a Tagalog song and she is singing it at her own land Korea and if I’m not mistaken she is pure Korean. I guess Ka Freddie saw that video.

What a shame.

A pure Korean is there at her own land singing a Tagalog song. Of course Koreans doesn’t understand what she is singing.

Sure, Charice and Arnel are making us proud because they are all over the world bringing us pride and joy. These two got the fame because of covering some foreign songs. I think Freddie Aguilar is quite right. If Sandara, a pure Korean who lived here for quite number of years and sings Tagalog song in front of thousands of her own kind why not Charice and Arnel. They are 100% Filipino. No foreign blood attached

What a shame.

When I saw that video of Sandara I realized that behind this “krung-krung” girl is more than a Filipino to some of us. She still knows to look back to the country who once loved her.

Then when I’m watching Channel V I saw these local bands playing at various places like Malaysia, Singapore etc… Well I am not sure if they are singing Tagalog songs but I am sure that they play their own compositions. That’s enough for me. That’s why I am for bands than singers, balladeers and pop stars.

So what I’m trying to say?

I don’t know. I’m still wasak today.

It’s a protocol; YOU NEED TO DIE TO BE A HERO, TO BE NOTICED

“and I want to thank you for giving me the best day of my life...”

In what I am seeing right now… I want to die… to be noticed…

When Francis M. is still around my brothers don’t know how to sing “Kaleidoscope World”. They wouldn’t even bother to play it on my laptop. But when he died, my ears are bleeding because they are singing it to death. They even let me download some of his songs. The same goes with Michael Jackson. When he is still alive we put more importance on his weirdness than his musicality.

It’s true that we just acknowledge a person when he or she is not around. We just take them for granted.

In Cory’s situation she is just acknowledge as a hero when she died. I mean do you really need to die to be a hero? She fought for democracy decades ago and just now when she died they come to realize that she could be another national hero. Yeah, maybe it’s better late than never. But if you could think about it, we really don’t know if she could really see us, if she knows what is happening right now.


Gives you hell

I’ve got so many things to tell. I don’t know if I can say all those things.

First I still don’t have a cellphone. My father is too thrifty. I am thrifty but he is just too thrifty and it is annoying. I got depressed sometimes not because I don’t have the cellphone or maybe it’s a part of it but the issue is they don’t give me something I like. I mean I may not be the best daughter but I behaved or I pretend to behave the way they like. I don’t go anywhere past 9 pm, I have good grades… so I guess I need some reward.

I don’t have an internet. I go to computer shops every time I needed to. And if you don’t know my course is Bus. I.T. so I really need internet services. I don’t ask them to give money to buy clothes, CDs or books. I’m using all my savings. As of now I have 20 bucks. I just bought Bob Ong’s Kapitan Sino. I really like to have Paolo Coelho’s Veronica Decides to Die. When we are at National I said that I like that book to my mom. She said she will buy me when it’s “salary time”. Well it’s almost august and she told me that last July. Damn it. I cried every time the cellphone issue comes into my mind.

I am about to graduate this March. And I’m already planning my future. I said to myself that I will apply to call center because the salary is quite high. If I will get about maybe 10-20 thousand in my first job, I will give 5 thousand bucks to my parents then the rest is for my luho and maybe save a little. At my first salary I will buy the latest cellphone. I know that I said before that I can live without that, I still can but it’s different. I want something I never had. I will also save some money for my “laptop fund”. I hate my laptop now. REALLY!! DAMN IT!! I also planned to go to abroad, maybe anywhere in Asia or Europe. I also said before that I will not go work abroad but things changed and I am changing too. I want to go to abroad primarily not because of earning dollars but because I want to be independent. I said before that I am not ready to go anywhere because I will be away with my family and I will be away with my favorite bands. But I said that couple of years ago, and at that time I am still young still thinking of stupid things. Now I am 19. I am way matured than before.

A lot of notable people died this year. And we are just half way through it. Francis M., Michael Jackson and now Cory Aquino. I just come to realize that a lot of things may happen that we never expect that it would happen. And now we are losing and losing iconic people who let us rediscover the words Pinoy Pride , Democracy and other words that we will not learn without them.