Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Astig!!!




“Pop machine……”

22nd Awit Awards Winner for Album of the Year:
Eraserheads: The Reunion Concert by The Eraserheads (Sony Music)

I remember the first time I listened to this album at the listening area of Music One. I went there to buy a cd. (TRIVIA: Mas marami akong nabiling original na cd gamit ang pera ko kaysa sa mga damit.) I think I was planning to buy Nut House of Hilera or any Eraserheads album like Cutterpillow, Circus etc. I really don’t like to buy the reunion album because I was waiting for the DVD format. The album cost about 300 bucks and the DVD is about 400 so sabi ko mas maganda na yung DVD na lang yung bilhin ko at least mapapanood ko pa sila. So when I saw that album I tried to listen to it. Grabeh Gandang ganda talaga ako dun. Parang nasa concert talaga ako. Partida masama pakiramdam ni Ely diyan. His mother died two days before the concert. Actually physically you could see that he’s not that moving too much. Pero sa iba para sa akin hindi naapektuhan yung pagkanta niya.
So medyo ang tagal ko na ata dun and I think the saleslady was already looking at me because 5 minutes lang dapat makinig. Habang hawak ko yung album literal na hindi ko matanggal yung kamay ko sa album!! I think I look like stupid… pero wala naman sigurong nakakita… I was holding the album at pilit kong tinatanggal yung kamay ko sa c.d. pero ayaw maalis. Haahahaha… sa sobrang ganda napabili ako ng mp3. kasi ang sarap na dikit na dikit at dinig na dinig mo yung boses ni ely pati yung music. Mas gusto ko iyong pakinggan na naka earphone kaysa sa speakers.

So now I am still waiting for the Final set album… hope it will come out real sooooon habang may pera pa ko….. hahaha …..

Putek




“Sa itaas ng bubong nakita kong nagunaw ang mundo”

I was listening to NU early in the morning. I heard this song “Putek”. Putek is one of my favorite expressions. Nagsasabi ako ng “Putek” tuwing badtrip, o kaya may nahulog na bagay o kaya wala lang… so ng narinig ko yung song na un I was curious at nagging interested sa lyrics at sa song. At first I thought it is about being bad trip or something. Pero nung nasa chorus na may line na “Sa itaas ng bubong nakita kong nagunaw ang mundo”. And then I realize na tungkol pala ito sa Undoy at Pepeng typhoon. I got teary eyed nung narinig ko pa yung lines na buti sila buhay yung kapitbahay nila namatay…. I heard a lot of songs na pertaining to the past tragedies like yung “Bangon” ni Rico Blanco at yung sa isang kanta na sinulat ni Ogie Alcasid na kinanta ng various artist. Pero eto yung pinaka gusto ko… very youthful and clever yung lyrics. And I know na maramin nakakarelate. Then kung hindi ako nagkakamali si Raymund Marasigan ay nakatira sa Marikina. So I am assuming na from personal experience yung mga yun. So talagang astig….

I wonder kung saang album ito kasama… malamang hindi sa S Marks the spot… I am willing to buy… I love the song!! Putek!

The antagonist

“Maliliit na tao ay walang kalaban laban…”

Bakit may mga taong sadyang ginawa upang maging sagabal sa buhay ng tao? Bakit ba may mga kontrabida? Ano ba ang mapapala nila kung pinahihirapan ka? Bakit may taong natutuwa kapag naghihirap ka?

Hindi ko alam ang sagot… isa lang alam ko… bawat isa sa atin ay may kontrabidang kilala sa buhay nila… Minsan alam natin pero madalas hindi…marahil tayo din ay nagging kontrabaida sa ibang buhay ng tao…

Para sa akinng kontrabida sa buay: “Magtago ka na dambuhala kakampi naming si bathala kung ayaw mo na maniwala sa Diyos mapipinsala…Ahhhh… IKAW AY DAMBUHALA….”

Pero katulad ng isang bida sa isang palabas… sa akin ang huling halakhak… Wahahahaha!!! Akin parin ang happy ending… at ang they live happily ever after….

Monday, December 14, 2009

Blurred Light



I see you’re shattered face
Against the blurred light
I pound it with all my might
Tears rolled down as I cried last night
I surrendered you’re life
The lines are too low
I guess it you’re time, you have to go
Goodbye for now
Good luck for tomorrow

Sunday, December 06, 2009

Life is unfair


“I've got another confession to make I'm you're fool…” Foo Fighters

I’m halfway through my thesis. My system can now add, subtract, multiply etc. My only problem is my “boss”. She is absolutely unfair in all degree. My graduation depends entirely on her…. And that sucks…. Bigtime!!

She has a daughter and she is in the same department. Hindi lang yun teacher niya pa. Very unprofessional. I will not be surprise if her daughter will be in dean’s list, or suma,
Magna at any point. She has the power and confidence to do those things…

Pampalubag loob, just right now I got a message saying that we are accepted as web designers of our former school… I am now an official freelance web designer. I am really thankful to God in spite these entire unjust situation happening to me. I am now absolutely depending on Him.

Ngayon ko talaga na raramdaman ang presensiya ni God. I’m praying that He gave me knowledge and give me codes on the system I’m doing. And he really guides me and giving me answers. Really!!! He does give me codes and knowledge about my system. Kasi nung umpisa as in walang wala. Tapos as day progresses I’m constatntly changing my system kasi may naiisip akong bago at parang mali.

Thank you God… I really know that next year 7 PESOS NA PAMASAHE KO!!!

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Agawan Base

MY LSS FOR THE MONTH


Sakaling magbalik sa iyo
Pagkatapos magpalit-anyo ang paligid
Sa ’sang gilid may mga matang nagmamasid
At nag-aabang ng bagong laro

Refrain:
Alam ko
Pagbabayaran ko
Ang nakalimutang tagpo
Pagbabayaran ko

Chorus:
Sa tuwing umaalis at tuwing bumibitaw
Ang puso ko’y nagsusumigaw
Nagpapanggap mang nakangiti pa rin
Dala ang iyong habilin
Ang puso ko’y nagususmigaw
Nagususmigaw

Verse II:
Sakaling magpalit anyo ang ngayon
Magagamot ba ang pait ng kahapon
Pagsisisi’y nakaukit sa naguumpugang bato
Eto na kaya ang bagong laro

Repeat Refrain
Repeat Chorus

Sunday, October 25, 2009

A Movie Suggestion from a Movie Idiot

I have a bad habit of sleeping at movie theaters. I slept while watching Dark Night and the last one is Transformers II. But I really enjoyed the effects of the latter. It is also peculiar that I’m writing about movies right now.

I am a fan of comedy or romantic comedy type of films. The last movie I’ve seen is Hangover which is the no.1 rated R comedy film. I also like Adam Sandler movies. I have a dream movie. Gusto ko sana magkaroon ng movie ang Pugad Baboy. Yes, you read it right. The comic strip by Pol Medina Jr. I started reading it when I am starting to learn how to read. I think it is not that impossible since the characters of Pugad Baboy already appeared on a music video and commercial. They appeared on Sugarfree’s “Pugad” video. The video revolves about… what else but FOOD!!... They also appeared on a Quaker (tama ba?) commercial basta about food pa rin. The plot of the movie? Kahit ano… siguro pwede nilang gamitin yung mga nagawa na ni Pol like yung mga adventures sa ibang lugar like Palawan, Baguio… o kung saan man. Or kahit ano. Kahit mala the Simpsons the movie…


Since uso yung mga libro na gingawang movie sa Holywood bakit hindi natin yung try. Why not make Bob Ong’s books a movie? Mas maganda sana kung yung ABBNKKBSNPLAko! Since parang biography iyon ng buhay ng author. Gusto ko din sanang masapelikula ang Rant by Chuck Palanhuik. Ang astig ng storya at sa tingin ko mahirap yon gawing movie.

Siguro kulang na kulang ako sa panood ng movies para malaman kung ano maganda at hindi. Last month manood sana ako ng “Kinatay” kaso tapos na nung pumunta ako sa Rob Manila. Indie movies are overrated I think. And that’s good since Phil. Cinema needs movie that has more substance. The first and the last indie movie I’ve seen is “Kubrador” starring Gina Pareno. I am really impressed with the whole story plus characters. You will never see a movie like that in mainstream. I really like to watch lots of indie movies like “Ang Pagdadalaga…”, “Masahista”, “My Fake American Accent”, atbp.

Unofficial Dean’s List

October 23 (Friday)

“Ako ngayoy lumilipad at ngayon ay nasa langit na gusto mo bang sumama?”
Pampalubag loob. I got my grades. I have 3 A- and a B-. I computed it and I could be in the dean’s list. I’m freaking out!!! It’s every procrastinator’s dream. Actually I have another subject that I will take for 3 days next week. I don’t know if it’s only passed or failed. Its 2 units. So unofficially my QPA is 3.5… Hell yeah… but it’s not yet time to celebrate… my thesis still sucks.

Pero pampalubag loob talaga sooobra. Imagine being stressed out for the first time. Too stressed out. Then you will see your name in the hall because you are included to the list… the list that everybody wanted to be in…

Pero… hindi pa ko sure… that’s the sad part… I’m crossing my fingers…

Depress Mode

October 20 (Tuesday)
“Wag kang matakot na baka magkamali walang mapapala kung mag babakasakali… Lumilipas ang oras baka ka maiwan kung di mo susubukan…”

Ang adik talaga… The worst thing that could happen to a graduating college student doing his/her thesis happened to me. It’s October and our defense is on December and just now our prof rejected our thesis proposal. WTF! We kept on repeating on her what will our thesis would be, she says nothing. So now I’m so ngarag… who wouldn’t be? I need to catch up. As in!!!

First time ata mangyari sa akin ito… I’m so fucking stressed out!! That even in my dreams I’m dreaming about our thesis…. Thesis, thesis, thesis!!!!!

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Safeguard


My heart is unguarded
It is surrounded by mere solitude
A love I can share
The pain I already can’t bear
Standing still
I realized happiness is not there anymore
I’m trying to go back to the reasons
Why I always smile
But my heart is blocked
My mind sucked
I’m sick of waiting
Roving in the dark
Alone in the park
Oh, my poor heart
It is patiently waiting
For her security guard

Cold Turkey

Loving you is a vice
It’s like puffing a cigarette
I won’t stop till I can’t get enough
It keeps me stable
I feel comfortable
It destroys my system
But I feel very elated

Loving you is like drinking liquor
It keeps me sane
It brings my different side
And as if my world is about to collide
It keeps me high
It makes me alive

From now on
I will not stop smoking
Nor my drinking
But I will stop loving you
Its cold turkey
And it’s hurting me

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Stupid!!!

September 15 (Tuesday)
“At sa ibang boy ikaw nakipag laro ka ng apoy… ako ay nananaghoy”

My favorite line for today:

While we are at our 6:00-9:00pm class our computers encountered some problem so we decided to use a proxy site because some sites are blocked by the way, and we just opened our facebook. Well we can’t do much because we are not allowed to play or anything. it is still blocked. so we just viewing our friends and their pictures to kill time. lisa opened her facebook and we saw her friend with D. Then…

Me: Is this D the self proclaimed…
Lisa and Me: matalino?!!!
LOL…
hehehe…. I hate people who are self proclaimed matalino… wahaha…

oh by the way we had retreat for 3 days last week. It was fun because I was with Lis, Marj and Anj. we are sharing 2 rooms together. It was really, really fun. Well I’m still having LSS with the song Stupid Luv by Salbakuta. blame my friends for that. hahaha… Kumanta lang kami ng kumanta… hahaha… I will miss those days… hay… sobrang cheesy…

Thursday, October 08, 2009

Rant

Oct.2 (Friday)

Pahabol… another weird thing about me is I keep the receipts of the albums I buy. I want to see when, where I bought it. I am also planning to compute how much I used in buying all those shit. hehehe… but not now…. I’m broke (walang pasok for 1 week!!! fuck!) and computing it will make me feel worse.

Anyways, I want to write about lot of things, like the latest albums I am listening, the books I’m reading, the suspension of classes, my fucking thesis, my fucking prof , but let see where would I start…

so now I decided to write something about the albums I purchased. The recent album I bought is Sandwich’s Two in One Cd. well because these past few days I am listening at the radio I’m hearing this song called “Butterfly Carnival” and “Hair Pin”. I love those songs… then last Wednesday I went to Astovision just to look around I found out that Sandwich’s Two in One Cd is 185 bucks. Well, I bought Mojofly’s 2 in one cd last July 13, 2007?( I told you I keep receipts!) when I guess it is still new it costs 285 bucks. Imagine 2 cds for just 185!!! It is impossible!!! hehehe…

I’m not yet done listening to it. 34 tracks are so many for my 2 ears. I am playing it randomly. Then I was surprised to hear a track by Raymund Marasigan. it sounded like a song from e-heads. But nonetheless… it is all good…

I also bought Kjwan’s 13 Seconds to Love. I love “Life Line”, “13 Seconds To Love”, “Nasilayan”, “Meron Ba?”.

I also bought Pupil’s Wildlife Repackaged Album. Dito ako mag ra-rant. grabeh! ang nakalagay kasi may ni re-mastered yung mga songs. Yun pala “Animal Lover” lang. Tapos sabi kasi my stickers. yung kapatid ko kasi gusto ng mga stickers like yung sa 5 on the floor ng sandwich. Hehehe ang babaw…. pero… ayun…tapos puro music videos at demos…pang lubag loob… tapos meron mga pictures na pwede ko namang I cut, copy, paste. Naiinis ako kasi na loko ako!!! I have Wildlife album na kasi. Don’t get me wrong I love that album and it won as album of the year at Nu Rock awards last year. pero para lang talaga ako nagtapon ng pera. inis na inis ako… pero sinasabi ko na lang sa aking sarili kay Ely naman yun eh. hehehe… tapos wala pa naman akong ibang album na gusto…. pero… grrrrr…. Sana bumili na lang ako ng e-heads album, o kaya lobo…

Elib ako sa mga marketing strategy ng mga yan… Naloko ako… putek…I hate repackage albums… baket ba may ganon??? nakakaasar…

Ngayon ko lang naalala… Tapos nap ala yung anniversary ng blog ko… hahaha… di ko na naalala… last September pa… so happy 3rd birthday to you… dahil dyan I re-renovate ko ulit… so pls. bear with me… hahaha

Votetante na ko!!!




“Boto mo i-patrol mo”
Before I vote in 2010 presidential election I first voted for NU 107’s Rock awards. It’s like an annual thingy for me. I think it’s my 3rd time to vote…. Yeah men!!!

MY VOTE LIST:

1. Artist of the Year
Kjwan
2. Album of the Year
13 seconds to Love
3. Vocalist of the Year
Yan Yuzon
4. Guitarist of the Year
Marc Abaya
5. Bassist of the Year
Paul Yap
6. Drummer of the Year
Ean Mayor
7. Song of the Year
Salita
8. Best New Artist
Duster
9. Best Album Packaging
13 seconds to Love (Kjwan)
10. Best Music Video
Gusto ko lamang sa buhay (Itchyworms)
11. Producer of the Year
Bamboo
12. Smart / URock
College Band of the Year
Pards (UP Manila)

· I am into Kjwan right now… Obviously… and among the albums there konti lang ang meron ako so bias eh…

Friday, September 18, 2009

Wake me up when March ends…

“Today is gonna be the day that they're gonna throw it back to you. By now you should've somehow realized what you gotta do”

Ilang buwan na lang at ako ay mag-mamarcha na patungo sa ma damong quadrangle ng aming eskwelahan. Makakapunta na sa kauna-unahang pagkakataon ang aking tatay sa SSC. Makakasuot na ako ng itim na toga. matatangap ko na ang diplomang aking pinagarap simula ng ako ay uhugin pa. Ang diplomang din yon ang sumisimbola ng aking pag tanda at pag papaalam. Paalam na sa pag-aaral. Paalam na sa mga guro…. Paalam na sa mga kaibigan. Paalam na sa buhay skwela. Paalam na sa pagiging dependent. paalam na sa baon. Paalam na…

Ang diploma ay isang simbolo din ng pagpapasalamat. At salamat sa IYO…

Ang diploma din ang sumisimbolo ng bagong hamon sa aking buhay. Ano nga ba ang aking mararating? makakapunta kaya ako patungo sa aking mga pangarap? mahirap sagutin pero madaling mangarap…

Sana pag gising ko bukas March na…. para tapos na ang mga agam-agam, mga nakakatakot na imahinasyon at pag dududa… Sana bukas pag gising ko ay may hawak na akong diploma…

The 10 weird facts about me:


The 10 weird facts about me:

Actually I don’t know if these things are weird but for me I think it is.
1) I cried maybe twice while reading a book. The books that made me cry are Bob Ong’s Mac Arthur and Mitch Albom’s For One More Day
2) I have trichotillomania, an impulse disorder characterized by the repeated urge to pull out scalp hair.
3) I am OC at my music files in my computer. I have folders of different artist. I want it to be organized. As much as possible I want all the details to appear, for example at Media Player I want Album Covers are there, the released date, the composers etc.
4) I get sick or sometimes not feeling well when I am restoring my computer.
5) I read newspaper, magazine or book inside the bathroom.
6) I love watching videos at MYX and MTV even if the videos are just keeps on repeating.
7) I can live without a cellphone
8) I have weird imagination lalo na pag gabi.
9) I don’t want my collections to be seen. Well I have a virus collection…
10) I talk to myself… a lot…

Friday, August 28, 2009

Alapaap


Sunday, August 23, 2009

False Alarm

Aug.17 (Monday)

Hindi ko na alam ang nangyari. Tumingin ka ng malayo. Wag kang lumingon. Pumikit sumikip, mata’y bumaon. Ewan ko ba? Ayoko muna. Tumingin ka ng malayo
Unting unting lumalapit sa’yo. Paakyat ako ika’y pababa sigarilyong hawak ko. ewan ko ba? Ayoko na muna…. Tumingin ka ng malayo. Maduling ka sa irap ko sa’yo.
Hanggang dito na lang… ayoko na talaga sa’yo… ewan ko ba? Ano pa ba ang iyong naramdaman. Kalimutan mo na. pls ayaw ko ng malaman. Kalimitan mo na ako… Kalimutan mo na ako… Kalimutan mo na ako… Kalimutan mo na ako… Kalimutan mo na… Nakalimutan ko na… Kalimutan mo na… Nakalimutan ko na na minahal kita…

Sunday, August 09, 2009

Mariah Monkey

“ABS-CBN o GMA7, ABS-CBN o GMA7… Original o Pirated”

The opening line is “Bombardment” by Dong Abay.

I heard in the news about the gaya-gaya issue of Freddie Aguilar towards Charice Pempenco, Arnel Pineda and Gary V. He said something like why Charice and Arnel didn’t sing some Filipino songs when they are invited in some shows or have gigs on a foreign land.

A while ago when I was playing with the remote control I saw Sandara Park. She is now at her own land, Korea and she has a girl group called 21. I saw their music video at Myx. Anyways, the chismis show has this video showing her singing her hit song “In or Out”. It is a Tagalog song and she is singing it at her own land Korea and if I’m not mistaken she is pure Korean. I guess Ka Freddie saw that video.

What a shame.

A pure Korean is there at her own land singing a Tagalog song. Of course Koreans doesn’t understand what she is singing.

Sure, Charice and Arnel are making us proud because they are all over the world bringing us pride and joy. These two got the fame because of covering some foreign songs. I think Freddie Aguilar is quite right. If Sandara, a pure Korean who lived here for quite number of years and sings Tagalog song in front of thousands of her own kind why not Charice and Arnel. They are 100% Filipino. No foreign blood attached

What a shame.

When I saw that video of Sandara I realized that behind this “krung-krung” girl is more than a Filipino to some of us. She still knows to look back to the country who once loved her.

Then when I’m watching Channel V I saw these local bands playing at various places like Malaysia, Singapore etc… Well I am not sure if they are singing Tagalog songs but I am sure that they play their own compositions. That’s enough for me. That’s why I am for bands than singers, balladeers and pop stars.

So what I’m trying to say?

I don’t know. I’m still wasak today.

It’s a protocol; YOU NEED TO DIE TO BE A HERO, TO BE NOTICED

“and I want to thank you for giving me the best day of my life...”

In what I am seeing right now… I want to die… to be noticed…

When Francis M. is still around my brothers don’t know how to sing “Kaleidoscope World”. They wouldn’t even bother to play it on my laptop. But when he died, my ears are bleeding because they are singing it to death. They even let me download some of his songs. The same goes with Michael Jackson. When he is still alive we put more importance on his weirdness than his musicality.

It’s true that we just acknowledge a person when he or she is not around. We just take them for granted.

In Cory’s situation she is just acknowledge as a hero when she died. I mean do you really need to die to be a hero? She fought for democracy decades ago and just now when she died they come to realize that she could be another national hero. Yeah, maybe it’s better late than never. But if you could think about it, we really don’t know if she could really see us, if she knows what is happening right now.


Gives you hell

I’ve got so many things to tell. I don’t know if I can say all those things.

First I still don’t have a cellphone. My father is too thrifty. I am thrifty but he is just too thrifty and it is annoying. I got depressed sometimes not because I don’t have the cellphone or maybe it’s a part of it but the issue is they don’t give me something I like. I mean I may not be the best daughter but I behaved or I pretend to behave the way they like. I don’t go anywhere past 9 pm, I have good grades… so I guess I need some reward.

I don’t have an internet. I go to computer shops every time I needed to. And if you don’t know my course is Bus. I.T. so I really need internet services. I don’t ask them to give money to buy clothes, CDs or books. I’m using all my savings. As of now I have 20 bucks. I just bought Bob Ong’s Kapitan Sino. I really like to have Paolo Coelho’s Veronica Decides to Die. When we are at National I said that I like that book to my mom. She said she will buy me when it’s “salary time”. Well it’s almost august and she told me that last July. Damn it. I cried every time the cellphone issue comes into my mind.

I am about to graduate this March. And I’m already planning my future. I said to myself that I will apply to call center because the salary is quite high. If I will get about maybe 10-20 thousand in my first job, I will give 5 thousand bucks to my parents then the rest is for my luho and maybe save a little. At my first salary I will buy the latest cellphone. I know that I said before that I can live without that, I still can but it’s different. I want something I never had. I will also save some money for my “laptop fund”. I hate my laptop now. REALLY!! DAMN IT!! I also planned to go to abroad, maybe anywhere in Asia or Europe. I also said before that I will not go work abroad but things changed and I am changing too. I want to go to abroad primarily not because of earning dollars but because I want to be independent. I said before that I am not ready to go anywhere because I will be away with my family and I will be away with my favorite bands. But I said that couple of years ago, and at that time I am still young still thinking of stupid things. Now I am 19. I am way matured than before.

A lot of notable people died this year. And we are just half way through it. Francis M., Michael Jackson and now Cory Aquino. I just come to realize that a lot of things may happen that we never expect that it would happen. And now we are losing and losing iconic people who let us rediscover the words Pinoy Pride , Democracy and other words that we will not learn without them.

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Wasak ang Cossack!!

July 15 (Wednesday)

“Wala naman kaming napala Wala, Wala, Wala!”

Wednesdays is our “Thesis day” because we don’t have class during that day. So we went to Lisa’s place to do our thesis. But as my opening line says… Wala kamin napala, wala, wala, wala, wala. Uminom lang kami ng vodka cruiser at isang dambuhalang Cossack Vodka. The taste of Cossack reminds me of my medicine for my cough. Mainit sa lalamunan… mainit sa katawan…hahaha…

We bought the drinks at SM supermarket. Yung sa mga liquor area. Ako, si Cindz, Lisa at Marj we went there to buy drinks. Tapos alam naming tatanungin kami ng mga salesman kung 18 na ba kami. Sabi ni Lisa “20 na ko”. Hahaha… sabi nila kaming dalawa ni Cindz yung tiniignan kasi di kami mukhang 18. hehehe…. Ang liit naming eh.

So what a wasak day.

To know wat really happened to us search for the “Alkohol” lyrics by Eraserheads. That’s exactly what happened. hahaha

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Rip it



Rip it off!
I want to see your burly body
Isn’t it a little bit heavy?
Come on see me at the lobby
Baby are you ready?

I always dream of your kissable lips
Oh I just can’t resist
You are always part of my list
Oh babe I can be your sexy beast

Your visage is a work of art
I can’t blame myself if you will be in my heart
You are such a talented human being
You are one of the reasons why my life is worth living

Rip it off!
I want to be your baby
Isn’t it obvious honey?
Come on see me at my room
I baked you some macaroon

Saturday, June 20, 2009

sketches











Thursday, June 18, 2009

Demented

 I am not free as a bee 
But I wander like a python
 I am not as pretty as I can be 
All I have is a stupid fashion

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Si Ely mismo…


“Turn off the lights now!!”

Ely is in the commercial once again!! He is the new endorser of Coke Zero alongside Billy Crawford and Gabby dela Merced. Ely is the star endorser I must say. Hehehe… He is the person I know that keeps on looking better when getting older. I said before that Ely looks like Smokey Manoloto when he is only starting with Eraserheads. Anyways, at ASAP Pupil was there to perform. Before that Rafael Rossel and Angelica Panganiban was mentioned by the host. Then they also said the name of Yan Yuzon. Then I saw some dancers then I thought Yan will dance. Oh well, he played guitar which what he does best. He is great. Then Pupil played “Disconnection Notice” with Gary V. it was nice. I think it’s the first time Ely and Pupil performing in ASAP for how many years. He was interviewed by Iya and asked something and he said something like he starts with nothing….etc… Then in his commercial he was telling it is good to start with zero. He really looks good there. Pero at the billboard parang may photoshop effect. Well anyways astig…

As I about to finish this post I saw another commercial of Ely. This time he is not alone. He is with Raimund Marasiga, Buddy Zabala and Marcus Adoro. Yeah boy!! It is an eraserheads commercial for Sandbox. I am now starting tolove commercials since puro si Ely ang nakikita ko. Hehehe…. Ely has 3 commercials right now, the Ako mismo commercial, the Coke Zero and the Sandbox commercial. Astig talaga… yung commercial is really good they are just performing “alapaap” pero astig talaga… tapos parang they are just laughing and hanging out…

Ako Mismo…

“Simulan mo na ang dapat mong ginawa nung umpisa… Gawin mo na ang dalhilan na pinanganak ka

Ako mismo ay susuportahan ang OPM music. Hindi ako bibili ng pirated OPM cds. Yan ang isa sa mga bagay na alam kong magagawa ko. Isa akong taong mahilig sa musika.

Ako mismo ay magpaparehistro at kikilatisin ang bawat kandidatong tatakbo sa halalan sa Mayo 2010. Hinihintay ko lang na magkaroon ng pasok. Para mas konti ang tao hehehehe….

Ako mismo ay hindi magtatapon ng basura kahit saan. Naiinis talaga ako pag nakakita na tao na nagtatapon kahit saan. Hindi pwede hindi lilipas ang araw na wala akong nakikitang nagtatapon ng basura. Bullshit… Isa pa ang daming dumudura… WTF talaga…

Happy Independence Day!!! Sana huwag nating pabayaan na mapunta lang sa wala ang pinaglaban ng ating mga bayani. Sila ay nagpasakit at binuwis ang buhay upang maging Malaya tayo. Ikaw, ako, tayo, Pilipinong matatapang at matatalino!! Huwag hayaang maloko ng kung sino sino……

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Books of Summer

“hey moon please forget to fall down… hey moon don’t you go down”

My vacation is almost over. It’s been a good vacation for me. First we went to Hong Kong. We are lucky that A(H1N1) is not yet known at that time. But you know what when I was at the airport and we were searching for the bag counter a stewardess was running towards me. Then she can’t speak in English but she was pointing at my ears. I thought my cross earrings are not allowed at Hong Kong. Then she had this thermometer and put it on my ears. My family is laughing very hard because I look like sabog or I am sick daw. I remember tuloy my prof wo told me that I look like Ebola virus…Hahaha… good times…

Then I had this training for almost a month. They promised to give us P60 per day as an allowance but still we don’t have it. I hope they willit. It’s almost June. WTF!!!

Then I finished reading books that I’m dying to read. It’s a nice combination. I read The Secret ,The Alchemist, and I’m still reading Catcher in the rye. Hehehe… the latter one was written decades ago but I think the situation of Holden is really modern. I think it’ really a good book. But I’m not yet done reading it. FYI my cousin’s name is Holden. So now I know where my Tito got it. It’s a nice book to read to start a new school year. It’s about a boy who failed in almost his entire subjects. Anyways I’m not yet done reading New Moon because I lost my interest. Well I’m about to finish reading it pero tinamad na ko. The movie helped me to not finish it. I am not a fun of Twilight. I’m reading just for the hell of it. I’m still looking forward to read Paolo Coehlo’s books. I think I might read those books since I really have a lazy schedule.

Speaking of my schedule I called it lazy because in 5 school days I will go to school for 3 times only. Tapos puro half day. puro pang gabi din. Sabi ko nga kay Lis kung may swine man sa school naming di kami mahahawaan kasi lagging half day at pang gabi kami. Ahahahah….

Oh I want to start my 4th year in college… I’m dying to graduate…

Closet Poet

Unaldurated words of my heart
Just coming out when I’m about to start
To form a song, to write a poem

When I’m at my closet
I become an instant poet
All I know, I rule in my world

I don’t know how to put words correctly
I don’t know the meaning of words I used, honestly
If I don’t make a sense, Oh sorry!

In my universe my intelligence burst
But when I’m back in reality
I’m still the worst

Tuesday, June 09, 2009

An open letter to God

Dear God,

Pls. don’t let it happen. We are all in need for change, and to be able to achieve is to change ourselves and change the leader. Well, or so I believe. Pls. let the people in power not to let Cha-cha or Con Ass happen. I may know a little about those things but whenever I hear this it means only one thing… no election will happen on May 2010. it will be my first time to vote pa naman. It will be the time where I will elect a candidate that I think will be right to be in the highest position. And I think that experience will show me that I can have a power even in just little time. Please God, our leader needs to leave her place. She already got lots of money from us. For me, every second that she stays on her throne a peso from our fund is slipping away. Don’t let that happen again.

I am not against changing the constitution. But there is a right time to do it. And I think the right time is after we elect a new leader. Am I right God? Please also help us to elect a right person. We are deeply in need of a great leader who will not be blinded by the power money. Let also the youth like me to help make a difference. We are indeed the hope of the future.Your child,
F

The real bitch

Wandering upon endlessness
What strikes me the most is this woman
With searing crown that no one can hold
I for instance can’t take it
To see her with a jaunty smile
Because I know that she is staggering phony
The real bitch I told myself
No questions asked
Is living her ambitious dreams
But I told myself
Its better to be me…
An unknown
Very simple
Happy girl
Than to be her
She may have all the richness in the world
But I know time will come
That The Universe will blow it away from her
Because someone really deserves what she has…
And that is Us…
Us who is better than…
A lot better than
The REAL BITCH…

Monday, June 08, 2009

Peyborit!!

Favorite song to listen in the morning
Neon Brights by Taken by Cars

Favorite song to listen in the afternoon
Must get out by Maroon 5

Favorite song to listen at night
Over and over again by Nelly

Favorite lullaby
Antukin by Rico Blanco, Tulog na by Sugarfree or any Sugarfree songs

Favorite song to play when relaxing
Burnout… ironic di ba… pero nakaka relax talaga yung song at Oo by Up dharma down

Favorite song to play when doing assignments
Freak out baby, Penge naman ako nyan by Itchyworms

Favorite song when busy
Anything because I’m too busy to choose

Top 5 Favorite Artist
+Eraserheads
+Urbandub
+Incubus
+Weezer
+The Beatles

Favorite song to play over and over
As of now Must get out and Antukin

Favorite artist to hate
Jonas Brothers and Nikki Gil

Favorite song to hate
High School Musical songs

Top 5 Favorite Album
+Eraserheads Anthology
+Under the Southern Lights
+Sinosikat?
+Incubus albums
+Weezer albums

Favorite song to sing nowadays
Antukin and Pork and Beans

Favorite video nowadays
Neon Brights I love the art effects!

Favorite type of music to hate
RnB… hindi naman hate… di ko lang type

Favorite type of music
As of now I’m trying to listen to various music like soul, instrumental, jazz… pero I really listen to Rock and the other types of it like alternative etc…

Can’t wait for the next album of…
Sinosikat?

Can’t wait to buy the album of…
Hilera , Kjwan and Archipelago

List your entire favorite artists…
I’ll try… eraserheads, pupil, taken by cars, itchyworms, kjwan, incubus, weezer, panic at the disco, rico blanco, jeff buckley, maroon 5, sinosikat?, old rivermaya, bamboo, silent sanctuary, sugarfree, U2, urbandub, up dharma down, coldplay, dashboard confessional, the killers… marami pa… tsk tsk…

Favorite New Artist
Is Taken By Cars still new? If not Archipelago

Favorite album to hate
Imago’s Take 2… I regret buying that one

Favorite song to sing when you are at videoke
Eraserheads songs because lahat alam yung mga songs nila…

Dream gig
It happened already

Fantasy reunion
Wala na… I’m contented to what happed to e-heads they are better of with their respective bands…

Favorite song that has been revived
Spoliarium by Imago

Favorite radio station
Actually I only listen to NU 107. hiyang ko na yung tugtugan doon kaso lang daming commercials… nakikinig lang ako ng RT pag Brewrats

Favorite VJ
John Joe wala na siya tsk tsk…

Favorite VJ to hate
NIKKI GIL, Luis Manzano, Chino, Bianca, Robi of MYX and Kat Alano and Andi 9 of MTV

Favorite DJ
Tado, Angel and Ramon! And Francis Brew of NU

Favorite DJ to hate
I already mentioned it before… yung mga nasa pang masa station tapos ang co-corny ng pangalan at nakakairita ang oag tawa…

Brilliant!



“I take my clothes off it will be shameless cause everyone knows this is how to be famous…”

The issue of the sex scandal is not yet over… it is still a hot topic…

Anyways, what I want to say with this entire hullabaloo is the senate participation. I know this is a huge issue. When I saw Sen.Bong Revilla talking at the senate I found him very comic. In this issue I remember former Sen. Tito Sotto wanting “Alapaap” and other OPM rock songs by bands to be banned. Eraserheads like Katrina Halili went on the senate to face them.

So what’s the common denominator…? These senators turn politician knows how to make noise by riding to a famous artist and waste their time on them.
And these senators… do they did something??? I know the issue of drugs and sex is something to talk about but not the way it happened and still happening.
The laws on internet uploading or whatever is the one that the senate must talk about. Why do they need Katrina and Hayden on the senate…

A lot of things are happening… and must talk about or be aware of…
The number A(H1NI) virus victims in the Philippines are getting bigger and other things… and oh by the way a Filipino director won Best director at the prestigious Cannes Film Festival…. The very first one and hopefully not the last. People are all glued on watching what happen next to Katrina and Hayden… they forgot that someone like the brilliant Brillante Mendoza is making waves in the film industry. Parang counterpart siya ni Cherice Pempenco or Arnel Pineda sa field ng film… oh well malas niya kasabay niya ang issue ng sex scandal… I remember what Paris Hilton said “Sex always sells”…

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Wanted Bedspacer




Album Title: Wanted Bedspacer
Album Artist: Ely Buendia
Number of Tracks: 11
Released Date: 2000

Review:This album is almost 9 years old. But it’s my first time to hear these songs. The first track and my favorite song from the album is “Wanted Bedspacer”. It is a mellow song. I really like the idea of Wanted Bedspacer. If you think about it parang may pagka double meaning, it’s like Mariposa of Sugarfree. Napansin ko na yung style ni Ely. Lagging may pauulit ulit na line. In this track “Wanted Bedspacer” line ay paulit ulit for about 2-3 minutes. Pero ayos pa rin. “Kakaiba” is really kakaiba. Very upbeat may “disco” feeling. I was surprised that Ely come up with this kind of song. Parang may katunog nga siya eh. Yung kanta ni Janno Gibbs. Yung latest niya. Basta something to do with dancing. I didn’t like it much kasi may pagka novelty. Then “Santo” I would say it can be mistakenly be from Eraserheads. Pwede siya sa “Natin 99” album. I like the line “Kailangan ko siya walang magagawa kung kasalanan ito ayaw ko ng maging santo”. “Tapos na” may pagka heavy yung sound. Yung tunog pwedeng Pupil pero not the lyrics. Masyado kasing given yung lyrics. “Shallow Breathing” naman pwedeng Mongols.

Overall this album will show what an Ely Buendia can do, and it means he can do almost everything. There is rap (“Acid Tongue”), novelty pop (“Suntok sa Buwan”), mellow (“Wanted Bedspacer”), upbeat disco (“Kakaiba”) and rock(“Shallow Breathing”). Parang it’s a fusion of the sound of his current and former bands. This is an album where you could really hear the sound of an Ely Buendia. Parang you will get up close and personal with him with his very catchy yet easily understandable songs.

Best among the rest:
I will say Wanted Bedspacer. It’s my LSS for this month. “Santo” and “Monday Mundane” is good din.

Rating
3 out of five rockstars!!!

Saturday, May 23, 2009

Naliligaw...




Ako ay naliligaw!
Giniginaw sa isang madilim na sulok
Nililigaw ang aking landas
Ng mga taong mabulaklak ang sigaw
Puro pa pogi lang ang alam ng karamihan
Sila ay nakasentro lang para makilala
Ang daming billboard sa EDSA
Ama’t ina ng propaganda
Ba’t di ilaan ang puso’t isipan
Sa isang musmos na naliligaw
Tinangay ng kahirapan, siya ay humihiyaw
“Tulong, Tulong!!”
Pero ang mga sigaw ay tila bulong lang
Hindi naririnig ng mga taong bobo
Puro pabibo sa media at kongreso
Ang isang milyon nila ay mas ilalaan
Sa mga magagarang kasangkapan
At kakaibang sasakyan
Samantalang ang hinihiling lang ng isang musmos
Ay edukasyong maayos
Magandang bahay
Matiwasay na buhay

Ako ay naliligaw!
Tinatangay ng kasinungalingan
Binuhusan ng kahirapan
Pinapakain ng pagdurusa
Bakit kailngan ganito
Bakit maraming taong gago?
40 milyong naghihirap
Hinahanap ang munting pangarap
Ngunit tayo ay nililigaw lang
Papakainin ng kapirasong ginto
Pag sila ay nanalo
lahat ay kanilang kukupkupin
Wala ng ititira sa’yo
Dahil tapos na ang matagal na pagkukunyari
Matagal ng pinaplano
Ang lahat ng nangyayari sa mundo
Sila ay ating manliligaw
Nililigaw tayo ng landas!

Ako ay naliligaw!
Kailang mahanap ang tamang daan
Magtulungan tayo upang hindi maligaw
Huwag magpapaloko
Huwag maniniwala ng todo
Sila ay magpapabango lamang
Upang ang masangsang na amoy ay matakpan
Ako ay Pilipino!
Ang bawat hakbang na tatahakin
Ay sisiguraduhing tama
Hindi ko hahayaan
Na maligaw ulit tayo ng landas…
Ako, ikaw, tayo
Pilipino at matatalino!

Friday, May 22, 2009

Working-class Heroes

Filipinos did it again… and again…

I am not really watching Randy Jackson’s America’s Next Best Dance Crew because I’m not into dancing. But I was able to watch the final episode. Jabbowackeez, one of the finalists is composes of 3 Filipinos out of 6members.
In the picture you could see they are wearing mask ala Phantom of Opera while dancing. Maybe that’s one of the reasons why they won. But nonetheless they are really good. America’s Next Best Dance Crew is like American Idol because there are three judges that will criticize you but the people will still decide on who they think is the best. Filipinos are really creative and talented no one could contest in to that.

The Pacquiao-Hatton match is implausible. Who would think that the match will end at round 2? Much has been said about how great Hatton is. My dad said that they just fooled us. He said Hatton is not really great fighter he and his company just want to make money. It could be true because win or loose you will get a hefty million dollars.
Pacquiao won and I think he has no choice but to win. He is a working class hero indeed. I am really stunned to see famous Hollywood actors supporting him. I think he said that he will retire soon. Honestly, I think his health really needs that. But we all know that he can’t retire. I heard someone said that the only reason why he is proud to be a Filipino is because of Pacquaio. I can’t blame him. I think we are in need of another Pacquiao because he is not getting younger. We are in search for another hero. Being named as the greatest boxer of all time by a sport extraordinaire…. It is really something else…. He is a Filipino… and everyone knows he is… and I’m proud to be one.

I know that last Sunday all of us are watched the match in different ways. Like there is a live feed at Solar Sports but only the rich people could afford that. Some watch it live; some watch it at restos and gyms while a large amount just stayed at home. While watching the match we are bombarded with commercials. One commercial that got my attention is this “Ako Mismo” campaign. Different people with different careers invite us to their campaign. They have Ely Buendia, Ramon Bautista, Maxine Magalona, Charice Pempenco, Arnel Pineda and a lot more. The advocacy of the ad is to push people to do little things that can end poverty.

Endless. A Silent Whisper



“excuse my manners if I make a scene”

This summer I found myself looking forward to watch news at 6:30 pm. I found some news interesting while some makes me insane lke Erap running again for presidency. WTF! Talaga…

Ngayon ang pinag-uusapan talaga ay yung sex scandal ni Hayden Kho at Katrina Halili. I commiserate with Katrina for that scandal. I am no fan of Katrina and I am really irritated in her acting skills but because she is a woman and so am I, I feel she is totally falling into pieces and I want to support her. Thanks to the gruesome attitude of the DOCTOR who ravages her completely. I think what we can do to this poor lady is not to watch the video. I didn’t see the video and I don’t have intensions to see that. Pero parang huli na ang lahat kasi parang konti na lang yung di nakakakita… sa mga hindi pa nakakakita…PLS. DON’T WATCH IT OR OTHER SEX SCANDALS because there are a lot of poor ladies suffering from the disgrace that the scandals brought to them. They may have mistakes on doing that such act but that is not an issue anymore. Spreading it and let the whole world see it without the knowledge of the victim is really a wicked act.

Though shall burn in hell…

Stored Value




“this time I surrender my everything forever…”

May 4 (Saturday)

I lost my phone while buying stored value ticket at MRT. Actually di naman siya kawalan kasi cheap lang naman yung cellphone. Hanggan ngayon nga di ko alam kung anong model ng Nokia yun. Pero as I said before pareho kami ni Raimund Marasigan… hehehe… ilang beses ko na kasing nakita na ganun ang gamit niya. Like I said din I can live without cellphone pero kailangan talaga siya since sira phone naming at pumapasok pako at para makakuha ng information sa skul. Kakatapos ko lang basahin yung The Secret and I am trying to practice it. At siyempre isang wish ko ay mag ka cellphone. I am not really particular sa model basta may radio kung may camera mas ok siguro… so ayun mukhang magkakaroon nga ako ng cellphone pero ang pangit lang ng paraan. Pero I think yun lang talaga ang paraan para magkaroon ako ng bagong cellphone. I am not really into asking my parents to buy me this buy me that… and I think they will not give me naman. I remember jokingly saying that I wish my cellphone will be stolen so that I can have a new phone. A couple of weeks ago, hindi ko pa nababasa ang The Secret nun, Sunday yun akala ko nawala ko yung phone ko. So sinabi ko na sa nanay ko. Tapos nakita ko din. Then I said sayang! Nakita ko na. so I think the whole “The Secret” is really indeed true.

Ganito kasi ang nangyari. Naka back pack ako kasi dala ko ang laptop ko. So medyo mabigat so nakalagay siya talaga sa likod. Ang haba ng pila at siksikan. Nung nasa linya pa lang… na fi-feel ko na baka may mawala sa bag ko. Tapos ng nasa line na ako na pagbili ng stored value merong mukhang goon sa likod ko. May na fi-feel na kong kakaiba talaga so mga 1 minute lang siya siguro sa likod ko tapos ginilid ko na. tapos nakita ko bukas na yung pocket ng bag ko. Buti naman di ako nag lalagay ng wallet dun at hawak hawak ko na din kasi. Ang nakuha lang ay yung coin purse ko na nagkakalaman ng whapping 6 pesos plus some Hong Kong coins at yung cellphone ko. So kung iisipin mo, ok na din yung nangyari at least di ako tinutukan o kung ano pa kasi dala ko nga yung laptop ko. Natakot nga ako para sa laptop ko. Gusto ko ng umuwi ng nalaman ko yun. Sayang lang naman yung sim card ko kasi may “stored value” din yun. Sa kanya ng yung cellphone sana sim mabalik yung sim card.

Kaya ayokong pumasok eh…

Ms.Brightside




Destiny is calling me open up my eager eyes cause I’m Mr. Brightside”

I have a trivia: only 45% of students get excited about going back to school. You know what… I’m included on that 45%. Why? If you ask me if I love to go back to school when I was in elementary, high school or 1st,2nd,3rd year in college I will say “Hell no!” and I will think that the 45% are nerds. But because I am already in 4th year this will be hopefully the last year for me. I am excited to make thesis, defend it to my terror profs, wear toga, and get out of my school. I think the 45% are all graduating students. Haha…

I need your prayers… please pray that I will graduate…

Well you know what, I am praying that I will graduate but I also remember my block mates. I also pray that they will graduate. I know that you know I am only close to 3 or 4 of them but I wish them all the best even we are not the best of friends, even if they always forget to text me and my friends if there is an announcement, even if they are plastics, even if…. I want a 100% attendance on 2010 graduation.

Sabi sa inyo mabait naman ako eh… I’m ms. Brightside…

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Weird taste


While I’m stuck in front of the tv these days I found my new apple of the eye. I like Anthony Bourdain of Full Course and No Reservation at Travel and Living Channel. Recently I saw him at TV Patrol and Jessica Soho. They said he went here and tasted our Lechon and he said that is the best tasting lechon in the whole world. O.k. enough of the lechon talk because I’m getting hungry. Back to Anthony, I think I have a weird taste in guys. Anthony is about, well I’m guessing about 40-50 years old. His look is mala bad boy/rock star. Love that! Hehehe… I also think that in today’s situation girls in my age go gaga with Edward (Twilight), Robert Pattinson (tama ba? Yung actor na gumanap na Edward), Jonas Brothers, Richard Guttierez, Gerald Anderson or Miggy Chavez. Well for me I like Ely Buendia, Ali Alejandro, Gab Alipe, Anthony Bourdain and George Clooney. Most of them are rockstars while some looks like rockstars… hehe… and almost all of them are older than me. Very old…

Like few days ago we have this epal well I don’t know what you call him because he is always there beside our guy trainer in our training. Wala naman siyang ginagawang kaepalan tahimik nga siya eh… epal lang tawag ko sa kanya… hehehe… he is gwapo. He caught my attention… malamang dalawa lang silang lalaki at nasa harapan taga pindot ng PowerPoint. My friends on the other hand are having crush on this cute epal guy. He is about our age or maybe a little bit older… pero sa akin walang dating… gwapo siya yun lang period… hehehe… my crush naman outside entertainment world… I have a crush on this guy. He is about 30-36 years old. He is not handsome. Hindi ko nga siya crush at first sight. Kailangan niya pang magpakita o magpamalas ng something para maging crush ko siya… hehehe… so I am totally a weirdo…. who the hell will write Anthony Bordain in their crush list…only me… hehehe… shocckkksss…

Saturday, May 02, 2009

Wasak dad


“tatay mo adik…”

Kaninang umaga habang naghahanda pumasok ang aking tatay nagkaroon ng commotion between dad and mom. Ang tatay ko hinahanap yung belt niya. Tapos sinisisi niya yung nanay ko since sila lang dalawa ang gumaalaw noon. Ang tatay ko nagmumura na kasi hanap siya ng hanap ng belt niya di niya Makita. Tapos ng huhubarin na niya ang t-shirt niya nagtawanan sila ang lakas lakas na nagising ako. Suot pala ng tatay ko ang belt niya…

My Universe




“I don’t think that you even realize the joy you make me feel when I’m inside… your universe”
Surprisingly enough I am reading 3 books consecutively. The first book I am reading is “New Moon” by Stephenie Meyer but I began to be irritated so I try reading “The Secret” by Rhonda Byrne. These two books are e-books so it means I’m using electricity while reading it. When I am not using my laptop I am reading a book called “The art of Happiness” by Dalai Lama that was given by a family friend 2 or 3 years ago. I would say it’s advisable to read “The Secret” and “The Art of Happiness” one after another. These 2 books are about ways on finding happiness.

I would say “The Secret” is a life changing book because it changed my perceptions and way of thinking about things. I realized I am sending negative signals to the Universe that’s why I don’t have what I wanted. The Secret goes like this… you should think of things you wanted. For example you want a new cellphone. Visualize it, think of it. Then believe that you received it. The Universe will do its work. I think you should read it to really understand The Secret.

A while ago I opened my Facebook. I saw something that made me shiver. I have a secret admirer daw and it’s one of my friends list. I opened it but it let me jump in some site. I think that it is like a propaganda… alam mo naman sa internet ang daming nag po-pop up. Pero maybe believing “The Secret” the universe made my simple wish come true. I have a crush to one of my friend on my friends list and I keep on thinking that we are together etc. so maybe The Universe answered it… I don’t know… I’m confused…

What I’m doing right now? I am fixing my Universe according to what I wanted to happen… I hope the genie will answer my wishes in pursuit of happines….

Saturday, April 25, 2009

It’s done


Counting days at night
Lifting me with your memories
Hysterically I said to myself
You will not be mine anymore
Our friendship is done
The class is gone
Loving you
It’s the most fatal decision I made
It left me scathed

Umaaraw Umuulan


“Umaaraw umuulan… ang buhay ay sadyang ganyan”

Habang sinusulat ko ito kakatila lang ng ulan… mukhang babalik nanaman si summer. Matagal na akong di nakakaligo sa ulan. Kasi naman wrong timing lagi si ulan. Pag umulan na sa school ako o kaya wala sa mood maligo. Kanina tsambsa si ulan. Tapos kumakanta kami ng Here comes the sun”. Ayun umulan ng malakas. Naligo ako kanina kasama ko ang kapatid ko. Masaya. Minsan ko lang kasi gingawa ito. Parang nagbalik ako sa pagkabata.

Kahapon naman nasa supernova ako ulit. Umuulan din nun. Nag-uusap kami tapos medyo Malabo ang sagot ko. Tapos sabi ni anj ang labo mong kausap. Sabi ko naulan kasi eh…. Haha… wasak talaga…

Senti evening

"Wanted bedspacer na mabait... yung panay marunong magligpit"
I went to supernova today. Ito yung kapalit sa ojt sana namin. I am really nervous because it is my first time to go there alone because marj is too lazy to go. I really have problem with directions. And supernova is so far from super pasay. I’m really scared. I thought I will not be able to be my destination. I usually spend my day at nova using the net. I really don’t listen to the lecturer. Nakakatamad naman kasi. Nang pauwi lis and anj wanted to drink starbucks coffee. I was jokingly telling them na ilibre nila ako. I didn’t know na totohanin nila. I love coffee but I’m really simple girl. I’d rather keep my 120 pesos than buying one starbucks coffee. Parang unreasonable talaga yung price. Tapos I rode at the MRT. I am armed with my mp3. Simple things make me happy. Walking or traveling alone at night while listening to my mp3 is included there. Pero I’m really nervous because there was some place where it was really dark and I’m petrified parang anytime someone could get my belongings. Hehehe… tapos ang feeling mo lagging may tao sa likod because of the light effects. Nagiging dalawa yung shadow ko. Wasak talaga… oh… I downloaded wanted bed spacer album of ely buendia. Ang tagal ko ng naghahanap niyan. Wala akong Makita sa record bars. Ang astig ng “Wanted Bed spacer”!! pinaka favorite ko yan.. sunod “santo”. Tapos nag download din ako ng sa taken by cars. Di ba sabi ko balak kon bumile ng album nila kasi hinde kompleto yung na download ko… pwes… ngayon hindi na ako bibili… nakumpleto ko na eh… wahahaha…

The truth about him

“Sunod sunod na kamalasan ang dumadating di ko na alam ang aking gagawin”

I know this is something stupid. But I am confused. Gago kasi siya eh! Nananahimik ako bigla na lang niya ginugulo ang mundo ko. It is just a fucking infatuation! Yes infatuation is the right word… I looked in the dictionary and this is the meaning of it. Infatuated-foolish; completely carried away by unreasoning passion or attraction. Attraction… he is not my type if you are talking about physical attributes. He is not handsome! He is antipatiko, arrogant and has a big fat tummy. I hate him for being around and distracting me. I just keep on thinking about him and the stupid things he did to me. Bakit naman hindi, I am studying in an exclusive school and I am not really exposed to guys. No wonder he will be the main subject of my brain. I hate him for doing things that makes me vulnerable. I know that he is insensitive and not aware because he is too old and too busy to think of those things. I guess that he is also like that to some selected people. But I just feel something is different. I wanted to know what he feels for me. If he feels the same, thought that is stupid to think about. Nakakainis kasi siya… he should be considerate to a young girl’s feelings. Why he touched my fucking hands and why he let me feels different because of the way he is treating me. Fuck that guy!

Friday, April 17, 2009

H.K.


“Here comes the sun… here comes the sun and I say its alright…”

A lot of things happened to me. I don’t know where to start.

Oh well, I will just tell you the story about my Hong Kong experience. Yes! We went to Hong Kong with my whole family plus my relatives at my mother’s side. It’s really an unforgettable moment because it’s a rare event that we all of us will be in a vacation. I was the official photographer. Hahaha!! My father let me hold the camera. I capture every minute that is worth remembering like we are in the airport, in the airplane… this is the first time me and my brothers ride in the plane. I was beside my big bro… I know he is being sweet brother or being nurse because he kept on asking me if I feel like vomiting. I don’t have much stomach in traveling… haha!! I mean I have this history of felling dizzy or vomiting while traveling. But thank God nothing happens like that. I felt dizzy for a while. I hate how slow the airport service. We spent our first day on waiting. We only have 3 days on 2 nights. Because we don’t have any time to go to some place we just went to the mall riding on a MTR.

That’s when comparing happens. We rode on MTR, MRT in the Philippines. In the MTR station it’s really nice. Walang wala talaa ang MRT. Ang bilis pa. so yun… then we ate somewhere.. and it’s my first time to hear a restaurant that doesn’t have any spoon and forks. I know how to use chopsticks but my father and uncle doesn’t know how to.

2nd day will be the highlight of the whole event. We went to Hong Kong Disneyland.

On the last day we just shopped. Basta I will never forget this. I’m really forgetful. But don’t worry I may forget dates but I can’t forget the memories.

Toyang



“They try to tell us we are too young, too young to really be in love…”

One lazy afternoon, I’m looking at some old pictures while listening to my iPod (hehehe… actually it’s only a cheap mp3 mas maganda pakinggan yung iPod eh..) nostalgia hits me. Maybe thanks to the songs that randomly plays like Patlang by Cambio and For you I will by… I don’t know. Well walang ka connect connect yung songs in my life pero surprisingly I was able to listen to the lyrics while looking at the pictures at maganda yung lyrics. I saw my pictures when I was about a year old till 10. I saw the pictures with my foreign cousins, uncles and aunties. Then I realized some things… Like why old people are scared when they hear the word birthday. For some reasons, I got scared now being old. When you are old tons of responsibilities awaits you. Idagdag mo pa ang libo-libong bayarin. I am 19 years old and 1 to 2 years from now I will be dealing with adult stuffs like paying TAXES!!, voting, paying bills… I don’t like it. Ngayon ko na realize that I just want to be a kid again. You know just playing around without thinking how cruel or hard life is… without thinking magkano na ba ang meralco bill namin ngayon… but when I was still a kid I remember that I wish I’m already an adult to have all the freedom in the world…

But I guess I am not too young at all!!

Minsan…

November 25 (Tuesday)

“minsan tayo’y naging tunay na magkaibigan”

During a 6 hour break you can expect anything and everything. Me, anj, lis, and marj went to our org booth to get our org shirt. But there is no one there so we just talk there because we know that that will be our “tambayan” next school year since we will now be the one in charge in our org. we will gonna be 4th year na nga pala next year. We are now talking about who will be the president, vice etc for our org. I was joking everybody that I’m rooting for anj. Si anj pa naman ay pala absent. Hahaha. Then they start putting names in a paper who will be the next president, etc. then they asked me “saan mo gusto?” so I said I want to be the org moderator!! Hahaha!! Taas ng pangarap! I also said I am contented to be the org mascot! After laughing very hard we went to the music room to do our music project. Our tawanan still continued. Ang saya!! Haha!! Then lunch came they are joking me that they want to go to our house and eat. I said I don’t like. Then when we about to eat our lunch they are heading to where I am riding the jeepney. So what I did I went in a separate way. Tinaguan ko sila. Tapos sumakay akong LRT. Eh I left my cellphone. Then when I arrived they texted my mother asking if I were already there. then the next thing I know they were outside our gate. So ayun pinapasok ko sila. Tawanan ulit. And they said “nag aalala ako sa iyo, akala naming na kidnap ka na ng mga naka FX”. It’s like an experiment for me. I proved that di nila ako matitiis. They won’t be happy without me!!! Hahaha then we went to MOA. We ate first at the …. I forgot,,, basta they are selling crepes. Nilibre kami ni Lis. Then we went to Time Zone ang saya. Naglaro kami tapos nagpa picture din. Then we didn’t notice…. Late na kami for our 5:00pm class!!! Then we arrived in our school mga 5:30++. Wala lang ang saya lang talaga.

Lis and anj are my friends since 1st year college. I must say that I was having hard time dealing with them in my 1st year. But as 1st year finishes ayun nalaman na naming ang kiliti ng bawat isa. Si Marj naman, classmate ko siya since 1st year high school. Ngayon nagsama sama kaming apat! Rambol talaga pag ganun. I think that what’s separating us from our blockmates. We’ve been together for quite some time and we’ve been through a lot… naks… so wala na silang magagawa dun… I realized that I can’t imagine myself be with friends with other blockmates if ever this isn’t my course. Di ko lang talaga alam…..

Ngunit mabilis maglaho ang kahapon… sana ay wag kalimutan an gaming pinagsamahan. Kung sakaling mapadaan sana ay huwag kalimutan na minsan tayo ay nagging tunay na magkaibigan…

I was Taken by Cars!




“I think you got the wrong idea… I think you got the wrong idea…”

I am into Taken by Cars in these hot summer days… The Endings of the New Kind is the first OPM album I downloaded in the net while my boring professor was discussing something. I am really into buying original cds especially OPM albums. Blame my boring professor for downloading their album. When I heard their first single “Uh Oh” I thought it is by a foreign artist. I don’t know if it’s good or bad thing. I think their music is shoegaze that’s how they described it I heard them saying in their interview. I really don’t know what does it means. Anyways I am really into Alternative, Rock and Rock alternative music but because of these OPM artist like Up dharma down, Taken by Cars and Sinosikat? they let me discover and love other types of music. They are really great. I am a kind of listener who first listens to our own. Yes, I am also listening foreign bands like Incubus, Weezer, The Killers and Panic at the disco but I don’t buy their albums because they are very expensive!! Hahaha… I just download their songs. Actually I have about 30 original albums of OPM artists. I collected it for 3-4 years. Ang tagal di ba? Hehehe…

My favorite track from the album will be “December 2 Chapter VII. I really like their sound although it is something fresh to my ears. Let’s add the beautiful and magnificent videos of their songs. I just saw “Neon Brights”. Surprisingly Jake Cuenca is the main character for that song. I think the band didn’t even appear on the video. I love the effects they incorporate in that video. May pag ka artistic yung theme. I also like the idea na Jake has this “unexplained power”. I don’t know who directed it. I guess it’s Wincy Ong because he is on the video too. By the way I have a crush on Sven… hahaha… ang weird niya kasi!!

Actually even if I downloaded it I am still considering buying their album because I just got 8 songs. I think it’s not complete. And it is a really great album from a really great band who loves taking risks…